A Rough Season

When life tells you to make lemonade but there is no sugar, no lemons, and no water, and most certainly no lemonade mix, what do you do?

Every year, after fall break, school starts back up and the professors are like "oh no! i haven't taught you nearly enough! lets get cracking!" And these hard assignments are always due before Thanksgiving. This is "normal" and I'm used to it now. But this semester, the projects just keep adding up and getting more difficult and more difficult.

I just.. just want to lock myself in a room and play my guitar.

Oh. guitar. that's going smashingly well.. :) I'm working on the song "Almost Lover" and it is coming along delightfully.

When I am... There is.

When I'm scared and want to quit.
When I feel like its too much.
When I just want a break.
When I just want to pause.
When I'm not pleased with the way things are.
When I've gotten content in my faith.
When I've wanted to not do anything.
When I want to just shut down.

There is a light at the end of my tunnel.
There is a driving force to every day.
There is something inside me that wants to break free.
There is part of me that wants to believe.
There is still something left.

Politik

Ohhh goodness. The debates are over. The Coldplay song above has been a favorite of mine for years, en lieu of the elections it brings me a meaning or voice of the song.

As America begins to vote, absentee, early or on election day, we are changing the future of our country. I'm not going to express who I'm voting for but rather make a suggestion that was made to me.

Pray about your vote. Pray for the country. And pray for the leaders. 

As always, we should be praying for the leadership of our community, state, and nation, we should also pray on what decision we should make. Don't just get fired up about who YOU think is best or who YOU want in office. Who will lead this country best.

This is a summary of a quote: As you walk in to vote [or in my case, prepare to vote absentee] be praying. Be praying as you are voting. Vote as a Christian. And as you leave, pray for the country. Pray for other voters. Whether you are republican, democrat, libertarian, independent, whatever you are, you are a Christian first.

That really hit me hard. Cause I have my opinions. And I have reasons to not vote for certain candidates. But who do I vote for as a Christian? I shall pray that in the coming days this be revealed as I prepare to fill out my absentee ballot.

As a first time voter, this whole voting thing and being part of the country thing is a pretty cool thing.

'Merica!

pack up'n'leave

Ugh... some days that's exactly what I want to do.. is just pack up and go.

Leave Indiana and just work and live for Jesus and be awesome.. it is so incredibly frustrating to be stuck in school. Don't get me wrong. I am not complaining to be blessed enough to have the opportunity to go to school. But 3 years in I am realizing that the degree and classes I really want are not what I have/can take, nor could I have taken them anywhere else. I want to break all the rules and make my own major.

Jesus broke the "rules" of life. He hung out with the different people. He walked the "path less traveled" not the easy one.. hmm.. it's like he's a role model or something ;)

Guess this is just another young person rant... just stuck in life waiting to break free.. only three more semesters stand in my way of the real world.. and that.. is strange.

That's a strange realization to come to.

I just see my life being like a cocoon and in May 2014, something beautiful is going to break free from that cocoon and bring a new perspective to the world.. add a little piece to the pie ya' know? And I sure hope the 4 years (that I will have spent) in college will be worth something.. 

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