Maybe it's just because I'm determined but I never understand it. I don't understand how you can compromise yourself for your "friends".
Why your "friends" would make you do something you aren't totally sold on..
I don't know.. Again. I have just set certain standards for myself I guess.
Also, I know because I haven't done it yet and "don't understand", but what's the fun in getting drunk? Not remembering the weekend or night? Not remembering that one time when..
Somethings I just won't understand...
College.
you may find a little bit about school, God, coffee & adventures that i have
Friday, November 2, 2012
Thursday, October 25, 2012
A Rough Season
When life tells you to make lemonade but there is no sugar, no lemons, and no water, and most certainly no lemonade mix, what do you do?
Every year, after fall break, school starts back up and the professors are like "oh no! i haven't taught you nearly enough! lets get cracking!" And these hard assignments are always due before Thanksgiving. This is "normal" and I'm used to it now. But this semester, the projects just keep adding up and getting more difficult and more difficult.
I just.. just want to lock myself in a room and play my guitar.
Oh. guitar. that's going smashingly well.. :) I'm working on the song "Almost Lover" and it is coming along delightfully.
Every year, after fall break, school starts back up and the professors are like "oh no! i haven't taught you nearly enough! lets get cracking!" And these hard assignments are always due before Thanksgiving. This is "normal" and I'm used to it now. But this semester, the projects just keep adding up and getting more difficult and more difficult.
I just.. just want to lock myself in a room and play my guitar.
Oh. guitar. that's going smashingly well.. :) I'm working on the song "Almost Lover" and it is coming along delightfully.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
When I am... There is.
When I'm scared and want to quit.
When I feel like its too much.
When I just want a break.
When I just want to pause.
When I'm not pleased with the way things are.
When I've gotten content in my faith.
When I've wanted to not do anything.
When I want to just shut down.
There is a light at the end of my tunnel.
There is a driving force to every day.
There is something inside me that wants to break free.
There is part of me that wants to believe.
There is still something left.
When I feel like its too much.
When I just want a break.
When I just want to pause.
When I'm not pleased with the way things are.
When I've gotten content in my faith.
When I've wanted to not do anything.
When I want to just shut down.
There is a light at the end of my tunnel.
There is a driving force to every day.
There is something inside me that wants to break free.
There is part of me that wants to believe.
There is still something left.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Politik
Ohhh goodness. The debates are over. The Coldplay song above has been a favorite of mine for years, en lieu of the elections it brings me a meaning or voice of the song.
As America begins to vote, absentee, early or on election day, we are changing the future of our country. I'm not going to express who I'm voting for but rather make a suggestion that was made to me.
Pray about your vote. Pray for the country. And pray for the leaders.
As always, we should be praying for the leadership of our community, state, and nation, we should also pray on what decision we should make. Don't just get fired up about who YOU think is best or who YOU want in office. Who will lead this country best.
This is a summary of a quote: As you walk in to vote [or in my case, prepare to vote absentee] be praying. Be praying as you are voting. Vote as a Christian. And as you leave, pray for the country. Pray for other voters. Whether you are republican, democrat, libertarian, independent, whatever you are, you are a Christian first.
That really hit me hard. Cause I have my opinions. And I have reasons to not vote for certain candidates. But who do I vote for as a Christian? I shall pray that in the coming days this be revealed as I prepare to fill out my absentee ballot.
As a first time voter, this whole voting thing and being part of the country thing is a pretty cool thing.
'Merica!
pack up'n'leave
Ugh... some days that's exactly what I want to do.. is just pack up and go.
Leave Indiana and just work and live for Jesus and be awesome.. it is so incredibly frustrating to be stuck in school. Don't get me wrong. I am not complaining to be blessed enough to have the opportunity to go to school. But 3 years in I am realizing that the degree and classes I really want are not what I have/can take, nor could I have taken them anywhere else. I want to break all the rules and make my own major.
Jesus broke the "rules" of life. He hung out with the different people. He walked the "path less traveled" not the easy one.. hmm.. it's like he's a role model or something ;)
Guess this is just another young person rant... just stuck in life waiting to break free.. only three more semesters stand in my way of the real world.. and that.. is strange.
That's a strange realization to come to.
I just see my life being like a cocoon and in May 2014, something beautiful is going to break free from that cocoon and bring a new perspective to the world.. add a little piece to the pie ya' know? And I sure hope the 4 years (that I will have spent) in college will be worth something..
<3
Leave Indiana and just work and live for Jesus and be awesome.. it is so incredibly frustrating to be stuck in school. Don't get me wrong. I am not complaining to be blessed enough to have the opportunity to go to school. But 3 years in I am realizing that the degree and classes I really want are not what I have/can take, nor could I have taken them anywhere else. I want to break all the rules and make my own major.
Jesus broke the "rules" of life. He hung out with the different people. He walked the "path less traveled" not the easy one.. hmm.. it's like he's a role model or something ;)
Guess this is just another young person rant... just stuck in life waiting to break free.. only three more semesters stand in my way of the real world.. and that.. is strange.
That's a strange realization to come to.
I just see my life being like a cocoon and in May 2014, something beautiful is going to break free from that cocoon and bring a new perspective to the world.. add a little piece to the pie ya' know? And I sure hope the 4 years (that I will have spent) in college will be worth something..
<3
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
loose ends
at the end of an event, we tie up our loose ends.
well, i don't want too.. i know thats crazy but i don't want to cut off from Danville.
i love my small group.
i love my girls.
i love the sunrises.
i love my church family.
but, growing up means moving out...
as i prepare to move back to Muncie, i want to share some of the wonderful things that God is preparing for me there.
i am going to be getting involved in Commonway's youth group. like sponsoring.. a total work of God.
Billy and i are trying to get plugged into a small group (not that the one we have in Danville isn't awesome) again, God is making things work out to give us community in Muncie.
i have an internship. what. a. blessing. it's been crazy but its going to be so beneficial to be in a real studio with a real company doing real work in the "real world"... very real. i hope this is an amazing opportunity to be humble, grow as a tech, and broaden my horizons.
SAI. ahhhhh! i am so excited. I am so excited to have sisters. this is my first active semester and i am looking forward to singing and serving Muncie!
be still. this is my challenge to myself. i had a good time this summer where i was able to pour out to God and then be still. be silent. it was glorious. it was refreshing. it was peaceful. definitely something i long for again.
as the semester aproaches, i am taking a "light" load of classes but much work. it will be interesting. and there will be several blog posts. hopefully one a week.
it's crazy, in 2 years I will be a real world adult.. i will be in the real world, where ever God has that for me.. i am ready to follow Him wherever He leads, I pray that i can have ears to hear and eyes to see His guidance over the next two years.
tying up these loose ends won't be easy, but i hope i can have another 2 years before i have to do that..
<3
well, i don't want too.. i know thats crazy but i don't want to cut off from Danville.
i love my small group.
i love my girls.
i love the sunrises.
i love my church family.
but, growing up means moving out...
as i prepare to move back to Muncie, i want to share some of the wonderful things that God is preparing for me there.
i am going to be getting involved in Commonway's youth group. like sponsoring.. a total work of God.
Billy and i are trying to get plugged into a small group (not that the one we have in Danville isn't awesome) again, God is making things work out to give us community in Muncie.
i have an internship. what. a. blessing. it's been crazy but its going to be so beneficial to be in a real studio with a real company doing real work in the "real world"... very real. i hope this is an amazing opportunity to be humble, grow as a tech, and broaden my horizons.
SAI. ahhhhh! i am so excited. I am so excited to have sisters. this is my first active semester and i am looking forward to singing and serving Muncie!
be still. this is my challenge to myself. i had a good time this summer where i was able to pour out to God and then be still. be silent. it was glorious. it was refreshing. it was peaceful. definitely something i long for again.
as the semester aproaches, i am taking a "light" load of classes but much work. it will be interesting. and there will be several blog posts. hopefully one a week.
it's crazy, in 2 years I will be a real world adult.. i will be in the real world, where ever God has that for me.. i am ready to follow Him wherever He leads, I pray that i can have ears to hear and eyes to see His guidance over the next two years.
tying up these loose ends won't be easy, but i hope i can have another 2 years before i have to do that..
<3
Thursday, July 26, 2012
deafening sound of my own ear drum
yes. exactly what it sounds like.
i have been sitting in silence, no music just the noise of my fan circulating air through my room. my right ear drum is pounding. not like a 'hammer and i have an ear infection pounding' but more like it doesn't know how to take silence.
work is never quiet. it is a constant 70dB or more.. don't worry i wear ear plugs.. but most of my coworkers don't. i can't imagine how they stand it. i didn't have ear plugs for the first month.. really wishing i had..
anyway. as i strolled over to NoiseTrade, i just thought of that word.
deafening.
a sound so loud that can be so silent.
such quiet noise can be so loud.
i have been sitting in silence, no music just the noise of my fan circulating air through my room. my right ear drum is pounding. not like a 'hammer and i have an ear infection pounding' but more like it doesn't know how to take silence.
work is never quiet. it is a constant 70dB or more.. don't worry i wear ear plugs.. but most of my coworkers don't. i can't imagine how they stand it. i didn't have ear plugs for the first month.. really wishing i had..
anyway. as i strolled over to NoiseTrade, i just thought of that word.
deafening.
a sound so loud that can be so silent.
such quiet noise can be so loud.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
your kingdom come, your will be done
Let Your will prevail above all else. Father, turn our hearts of stone into hearts of joy.
Several thoughts run through my head but this I know is true: God is good. Not just like "oh I got to Muncie safe" or "oh I didn't curse today" but If you surrender He can do more amazing things with your life than whatever you have planned. The best way to make God laugh, is to tell Him your plans.
Father, make the desires of our hearts the desires of your heart.
I have never had such a passion like this and I hope it continues to grow. Recently, I have felt a longing from my soul for a close friend. That they might run back to Jesus' never failing love.
Longing from the soul? It is something I cannot explain but my soul was broken for them. A spiritual pain I had never experienced before. A pain I pray I never have I feel again.
Trust God. His love is never failing, His comfort is never ending and no matter what you have done He is there to take you back. Even with all of your brokenness.
We don't have to go very far. All we have to do is turn around. Not even walk and we are already loved!
Finally, Father thank you for divine intervention.
I shall let the above speak for itself but when all your hope, trust, faith and identity is in Christ alone, no matter what material possessions you have or have not, you are richer than the richest Kings of Earth!
<3
Several thoughts run through my head but this I know is true: God is good. Not just like "oh I got to Muncie safe" or "oh I didn't curse today" but If you surrender He can do more amazing things with your life than whatever you have planned. The best way to make God laugh, is to tell Him your plans.
Father, make the desires of our hearts the desires of your heart.
I have never had such a passion like this and I hope it continues to grow. Recently, I have felt a longing from my soul for a close friend. That they might run back to Jesus' never failing love.
Longing from the soul? It is something I cannot explain but my soul was broken for them. A spiritual pain I had never experienced before. A pain I pray I never have I feel again.
Trust God. His love is never failing, His comfort is never ending and no matter what you have done He is there to take you back. Even with all of your brokenness.
We don't have to go very far. All we have to do is turn around. Not even walk and we are already loved!
Finally, Father thank you for divine intervention.
I shall let the above speak for itself but when all your hope, trust, faith and identity is in Christ alone, no matter what material possessions you have or have not, you are richer than the richest Kings of Earth!
<3
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Thursday, July 12, 2012
indiana
Now, as you are well aware, I live in humble ol' Indiana.
We don't have beaches.
We don't have awesome weather.
We don't have mountains.
We don't have more than corn.
But what we do have is AMAZING sunrises and sunsets.
So awesome you should be jealous. When the sun is rising over the corn it is breathtaking.
Be jealous.
:)
We don't have beaches.
We don't have awesome weather.
We don't have mountains.
We don't have more than corn.
But what we do have is AMAZING sunrises and sunsets.
So awesome you should be jealous. When the sun is rising over the corn it is breathtaking.
Be jealous.
:)
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
this isn't easy
But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to
everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this
with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak
maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.
It is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.
1 Peter 3:15-17 (NIV84)
It has become aware that life isn't easy. Even for the believer. True, it can be easier and with the hope of Jesus and knowing the the Gospel is true no matter what happens, the days become more easily manageable even in the worst of situations. I guess this is me venting after a rough week..
I am here reminding myself that yes, the week was hard and the next week will be as well. Different challenges will rise and different situations will effect me. But can I tell you something? The Truth is still going to be true. My God still has a plan. And I still trust in Him! Because no matter how hot the factory was or how sick I felt or how awful my spanish homework was, God is still God and He is always good.
Never get too busy to find joy in Him. Now don't think I'm excluding me from this.. call me out in October, ask me how well I'm doing. But seriously.. take time daily to find joy in Him. At 5:15 when that alarm goes off and I didn't fall asleep until midnight, I am not a happy person. But when I turn it off and roll over, I remember that He has given me another day on this Earth, to love for His plan, and to grow closer to Him. Since a wonderful sermon on Sunday which challenged us to find joy in the Lord every morning before we do anything else, I'm here to say 5:15 is pretty ugly unless you find your joy, passion, hope, and outlook for the day in the Lord.
In the darkness of 5:15am, when there is no sunlight and I can still see the stars this is what I'm reminded of:
Neither
do people light a lamp and put it
under a bowl. Instead they put it on
its stand,
and it gives light to everyone in the house.
Matthew 5:15 (NIV84)
There was a noticeable difference in my attitude.. in the mornings at least. And my outlook changed from "I have to go to work so early" to "I get to go to work so early" and god has been so gracious enough to paint me a wonderful sunrise every morning.
Try it for a week.. besides, reading the bible too much isn't bad for ya..
It get's easier.
<3
Saturday, June 30, 2012
it's okay to be broken
We are human. We are broken. We are so messed up that Jesus, Son of God, had to die for humanity.
That's deep.
Think about it.
I will wait...
Thought about it? Okay good. Now, we are loved. We are loved so much that death on a cross was nothing! So you might be wondering what I'm getting at.. huh? The title said it's okay to be broken.
After my recent trip to Ichthus and just in conversations I have become more aware than ever before of the brokenness and hurt in my friends lives and my own. I guess it all started at Ichthus... I heard two amazing messages there.. Heres the jist.
If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain "jump" and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, or what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. - 1 Corinthians 13: 1-7 (MSG)
That's deep.
Think about it.
I will wait...
Thought about it? Okay good. Now, we are loved. We are loved so much that death on a cross was nothing! So you might be wondering what I'm getting at.. huh? The title said it's okay to be broken.
After my recent trip to Ichthus and just in conversations I have become more aware than ever before of the brokenness and hurt in my friends lives and my own. I guess it all started at Ichthus... I heard two amazing messages there.. Heres the jist.
story number one:
there was this guy who was going to go over Niagara Falls (in the 1800s) in a barrel. day of he changed his mind and asked for a tightrope and a wheel barrow. the man waled across the span not once, not twice but three times. before he began the third trek, he asked the crowd if they believed he could do it. of course they all said yes. then he asked one of the most shocking things of all. he asked if anyone would believe enough to get into the wheel barrow.
now.. on a totally different note
story number two:
the theme for Ichthus 2012 was Live:Love. you cant live out love until you have live judged. instead of judging others by how they look or what they do, think about how we were judged by God and then he sent Jesus. first, live judged so you can understand the love you are supposed to live. you are loved exactly how you are: broken, hurt, shameful, prideful, a mess. love others with that love that you have been given.
Now that story time is over, I will explain, and explain what these two have to do with each other. In the first story, Jesus defied sin. He walked "over" it every time. now if Jesus was on that tightrope and he asked you to get into the wheelbarrow would you? Do you have faith enough to believe? The person who really believes, not just a face in the crowd, gets into the wheel barrow. In story number two (though it is pretty self explanatory) it is encouraging to be reminded that even in our horrible brokenness, we are loved. He meets us where we are and holds us in His hands.
No matter your brokenness, your shame, your self disgust with yourself... know this: you are loved. I am included in that.. too often I think about if I could just do this, if i could learn how to do this.. but no matter what happens, we are loved.
This song has been on the radio a lot lately. The full band version (less acoustic and obviously CD quality not live) is a bit different but the lyrics and the the scripture verse in it has been resonating with me ever since Ichthus. Please take a few moments...
If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain "jump" and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, or what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. - 1 Corinthians 13: 1-7 (MSG)
<3
Friday, June 15, 2012
God is big.
He will take "your plans" and reveal His to you. Sound familiar or would you like an example? Well... Here's a few.
- I wanted a part time summer job, Go delivers a full time job.
- I wanted 3rd shift, Go provides 1st enabling me to have a social life in Danville.
- I wanted to be in Muncie to spend time with Billy and my friends, God gives me said job... In Lebanon. Meaning I must move back home.
- I wanted to have fun and hang out and work on my relationship with Billy, God wants my whole heart.
12 hours later I am no longer bitter or angry with God. I am at peace. He has to have something planned. I know He knows what's best.. The hard part is surrendering. Taking everything I had planned and throwing it out the window. This will be a good thing. I know moving home will deliver me from a few kinds of temptation, allow me to connect with Northview and small group again, make some money and experience some new things...
Surrendering is not easy.
In the mean time could you pray? After my interview I was supposed to hear back about scheduling my orientation. I have not heard back yet and also my dates off for Ichthus are pending. I know God has it figured out, and I'm sure since he got me the job he will help me go to Ichthus but just to be sure.. Your prayers would be appreciated. I will patiently wait until Monday before I call Pearson.
I pray that I can continue to trust in Him and know that I may go to Ichthus. I am ever so excited for it....
Until next time...
<3
- I wanted a part time summer job, Go delivers a full time job.
- I wanted 3rd shift, Go provides 1st enabling me to have a social life in Danville.
- I wanted to be in Muncie to spend time with Billy and my friends, God gives me said job... In Lebanon. Meaning I must move back home.
- I wanted to have fun and hang out and work on my relationship with Billy, God wants my whole heart.
12 hours later I am no longer bitter or angry with God. I am at peace. He has to have something planned. I know He knows what's best.. The hard part is surrendering. Taking everything I had planned and throwing it out the window. This will be a good thing. I know moving home will deliver me from a few kinds of temptation, allow me to connect with Northview and small group again, make some money and experience some new things...
Surrendering is not easy.
In the mean time could you pray? After my interview I was supposed to hear back about scheduling my orientation. I have not heard back yet and also my dates off for Ichthus are pending. I know God has it figured out, and I'm sure since he got me the job he will help me go to Ichthus but just to be sure.. Your prayers would be appreciated. I will patiently wait until Monday before I call Pearson.
I pray that I can continue to trust in Him and know that I may go to Ichthus. I am ever so excited for it....
Until next time...
<3
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
:O
Wow..
God writes great stories.
I just received a call for a second interview at Pearson Education warehouse in Lebanon. My interview is on Friday at 1:30. Since my application to Pearson, I have been wondering if I'm really supposed to be in Muncie for the summer. I know what you're thinking, it's June.. it IS summer. But summer goes until August somethignth..
Wow.. I am just so thankful for His faithfulness. As you may figure out, I am kind of in shock. He is so good.
I have learned so much this summer in Danville (the first half) at church and in small group and if I get this position, I would be able to continue to learn. And when I told Billy (when I got my first interview) that I would be moving back home, he was so supportive.
God is totally in this, His hands are all over this..
Well.. I will update after Friday..
<3
God writes great stories.
I just received a call for a second interview at Pearson Education warehouse in Lebanon. My interview is on Friday at 1:30. Since my application to Pearson, I have been wondering if I'm really supposed to be in Muncie for the summer. I know what you're thinking, it's June.. it IS summer. But summer goes until August somethignth..
Wow.. I am just so thankful for His faithfulness. As you may figure out, I am kind of in shock. He is so good.
I have learned so much this summer in Danville (the first half) at church and in small group and if I get this position, I would be able to continue to learn. And when I told Billy (when I got my first interview) that I would be moving back home, he was so supportive.
God is totally in this, His hands are all over this..
Well.. I will update after Friday..
<3
Thursday, June 7, 2012
O Faithful God!
As you may know, I have been seeking employment since March. The offer has always stood to go back home for the summer and work. I was dead set on finding something here in Muncie and I was sure with 8,000 college students leaving there would be something!
Well... apparently I was wrong, and still have not yet found a job. So, yesterday after calling the 4 most recent applications, I went out on a whim and filled out an application for Pearson Education in Lebanon. Not ideal, but it's a job.
This morning I was awakened to a loud noise (my phone) and not having even been awake, I look and it says a 765 number from Lebanon, IN. I knew it was them. So, obviously I answered. Come to find out I didn't have a voice.. well much of one.
After a 5 minute chat or so, I now have an interview Monday at 11am in Lebanon for a full time job. I am so thrilled. I do not know if anyone else has interviews or if I'm pretty much "in".
Another moment of God's faithfulness, Billy got hired at KFC! He had orientation yesterday and his first day is Tuesday at 2. I knew he now has a huge weight lifted off of his shoulders.
Well... that's what's up in Muncie...
:)
Well... apparently I was wrong, and still have not yet found a job. So, yesterday after calling the 4 most recent applications, I went out on a whim and filled out an application for Pearson Education in Lebanon. Not ideal, but it's a job.
This morning I was awakened to a loud noise (my phone) and not having even been awake, I look and it says a 765 number from Lebanon, IN. I knew it was them. So, obviously I answered. Come to find out I didn't have a voice.. well much of one.
After a 5 minute chat or so, I now have an interview Monday at 11am in Lebanon for a full time job. I am so thrilled. I do not know if anyone else has interviews or if I'm pretty much "in".
Another moment of God's faithfulness, Billy got hired at KFC! He had orientation yesterday and his first day is Tuesday at 2. I knew he now has a huge weight lifted off of his shoulders.
Well... that's what's up in Muncie...
:)
Monday, June 4, 2012
Time flies
If you might not have noticed, before yesterday I had not posted since May. I just got busy. Really, really, really busy.
God has been doing some pretty amazing work though. Even when there isn't much happening, He is preparing your heart for what He will do next.
Lately I have become more intentional. Intentional in relationships, conversations, prayer, and even my health. As I was telling Billy earlier for the first time in college I am completely happy. I am 1000% yes, one thousand percent happy with the sate of my life. I wouldn't change anything, because the way my life is right now is the way He has orchestrated it.
Everyday I am learning new things and God is revealing more and more of my story to me. But there are some things I know that will stay. <3 Those are what keep me going.
So, everyone who is trying to keep up with my life, I will post more this summer. Here is a brief recap of May:
- May 5th move into Granville house!
get cable, air conditioning, other housely things
- May 18th Southmont Royal Mountie Spring Concert
that Bethy Jones girl did a pretty good job and had on an adorable dress!
- came home every weekend to see family
- applied to almost every place in Muncie
- While my Muncie Summer has been "uneventful" I already have plenty of stories and "remember that one time's"
June will hold exciting things:
- Ichthus
- Spanish 102
- get a job?
- Billy get a job... 2nd interview at KFC at 10:45am... yes, 8 hours from now :)
- acknowledging 3 1/2 years of awesomeness with Billy Jones <3
- C25K : Couch to 5K journey
Ummm... yeah... I think that's about it.. and I'll try to blog more.
<3
God has been doing some pretty amazing work though. Even when there isn't much happening, He is preparing your heart for what He will do next.
Lately I have become more intentional. Intentional in relationships, conversations, prayer, and even my health. As I was telling Billy earlier for the first time in college I am completely happy. I am 1000% yes, one thousand percent happy with the sate of my life. I wouldn't change anything, because the way my life is right now is the way He has orchestrated it.
Everyday I am learning new things and God is revealing more and more of my story to me. But there are some things I know that will stay. <3 Those are what keep me going.
So, everyone who is trying to keep up with my life, I will post more this summer. Here is a brief recap of May:
- May 5th move into Granville house!
get cable, air conditioning, other housely things
- May 18th Southmont Royal Mountie Spring Concert
that Bethy Jones girl did a pretty good job and had on an adorable dress!
- came home every weekend to see family
- applied to almost every place in Muncie
- While my Muncie Summer has been "uneventful" I already have plenty of stories and "remember that one time's"
June will hold exciting things:
- Ichthus
- Spanish 102
- get a job?
- Billy get a job... 2nd interview at KFC at 10:45am... yes, 8 hours from now :)
- acknowledging 3 1/2 years of awesomeness with Billy Jones <3
- C25K : Couch to 5K journey
Ummm... yeah... I think that's about it.. and I'll try to blog more.
<3
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Oh Ireland,
One year ago today, I was in beautiful Ireland about to learn things I had never thought about before. One year later, I reflect and see what God has brought me thorough, what He has taught me and how every moment of stress, peril, fear, love, praise, and joy was part of His plan. He has something far greater planned for my life than I could ever imagine.
In the last year He has been with me every step. Even when I ran away, He loved me.
From Ireland, through sophomore year, to Seattle and now.
In the past 365 days, I have learned a lot about myself. And today I learned one more thing.
Today, I learned how passionate my heart is for the Kingdom of God. I also learned that I rarely act upon it. This morning during worship, I truly felt the a calling that I should somehow be involved in a movement for the Kingdom. Now, I have no clue what this may be and I have no clue when this could happen. But I am thoroughly excited for the opportunity.
I am beyond thrilled that in 2 years, when I graduate college, I will be moved (quite literally). I guess I am more writing for myself now, than for your knowledge. But I am so ready to be radical... a good kind of radical not a crazy bible beating "love Jesus" kind of radical.
God works a lot in a year... What has He done for you in the last 365 days?
<3
In the last year He has been with me every step. Even when I ran away, He loved me.
From Ireland, through sophomore year, to Seattle and now.
In the past 365 days, I have learned a lot about myself. And today I learned one more thing.
Today, I learned how passionate my heart is for the Kingdom of God. I also learned that I rarely act upon it. This morning during worship, I truly felt the a calling that I should somehow be involved in a movement for the Kingdom. Now, I have no clue what this may be and I have no clue when this could happen. But I am thoroughly excited for the opportunity.
I am beyond thrilled that in 2 years, when I graduate college, I will be moved (quite literally). I guess I am more writing for myself now, than for your knowledge. But I am so ready to be radical... a good kind of radical not a crazy bible beating "love Jesus" kind of radical.
God works a lot in a year... What has He done for you in the last 365 days?
<3
Friday, April 20, 2012
One. Week. Left.
[insert Hallelujah chorus from Hadel's Messiah]
Wow.. this last month has been crazy.. sorry to keep you all in suspense and wondering what I've possibly been doing. So here's a recap in no specific order:
+ Sigma Alpha Iota: yup, I've been pledging a fraternity. Yes, I said fraternity. I can explain all of that later.
+ ICOM: I've had a love hate relationship with this class.. our final project was to create a social media website: www.recordsessions.com
+ Network Tacoma: the website is final live!!!!! Awesomesauce. You should check it out. Network is truly a great organization and the work of God is in everything they do. My week out there was more of a blessing to me than my presence was a blessing to them. I've even decided to maintain their website for the near future. www.networktacoma.org
+ Applying for new jobs after quitting night staff in March. The most recent applications are Booking and Communications Coordinator at the Scene at Indiana Public Radio and a secretarial job in the Office of Finance at BSU. Both of these jobs would be very fitting, have summer hours but I really have high hopes to get the job at the Scene. It would be a great way to get my foot in the door of the industry that I hope to go into.
+ Move in to our house on the 1st!!!!!! So ever excited... :)
+ SoM Formal is Saturday night
Really all I have left is that I have to finish up some projects and then finals. I'm not really too worried about school now. It's the homestretch and it's kind of an easy one now.
I apply for classes in 45 mintues and will soon be posting about that I'm sure.
Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth but life got busy.
<3
Wow.. this last month has been crazy.. sorry to keep you all in suspense and wondering what I've possibly been doing. So here's a recap in no specific order:
+ Sigma Alpha Iota: yup, I've been pledging a fraternity. Yes, I said fraternity. I can explain all of that later.
+ ICOM: I've had a love hate relationship with this class.. our final project was to create a social media website: www.recordsessions.com
+ Network Tacoma: the website is final live!!!!! Awesomesauce. You should check it out. Network is truly a great organization and the work of God is in everything they do. My week out there was more of a blessing to me than my presence was a blessing to them. I've even decided to maintain their website for the near future. www.networktacoma.org
+ Applying for new jobs after quitting night staff in March. The most recent applications are Booking and Communications Coordinator at the Scene at Indiana Public Radio and a secretarial job in the Office of Finance at BSU. Both of these jobs would be very fitting, have summer hours but I really have high hopes to get the job at the Scene. It would be a great way to get my foot in the door of the industry that I hope to go into.
+ Move in to our house on the 1st!!!!!! So ever excited... :)
+ SoM Formal is Saturday night
Really all I have left is that I have to finish up some projects and then finals. I'm not really too worried about school now. It's the homestretch and it's kind of an easy one now.
I apply for classes in 45 mintues and will soon be posting about that I'm sure.
Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth but life got busy.
<3
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Welcome Back! [thud]
[thud]
that's the sound of assignments being dropped on me like they're going out of style.
Before the end of the month is over these assignments are due:
10 page paper over Twitter's effect on war/revolt (9 days)
15 minute Spanish presentation (7 days)
Sigma Alpha Iota National Exam - history memorized; some verbatim (17 days)
History Test (5 days)
Spanish Exam (13 days)
Women's Chorus Concert (12 days)
launch a website - ICOM - (2 days)
CAP ???? I don't even know!
AND I'M SURE I'M FORGETTING THINGS...
So, In summary. Please pray for me. I am not trying to have a woe is me pity party, simply asking for prayer. After seeing all of these things I feel like I am defeated. Please partner with me to stay calm, not hate my professors and possibly that some will have mercy.. Also, that the stress does not effect me much..
<3
that's the sound of assignments being dropped on me like they're going out of style.
Before the end of the month is over these assignments are due:
10 page paper over Twitter's effect on war/revolt (9 days)
15 minute Spanish presentation (7 days)
Sigma Alpha Iota National Exam - history memorized; some verbatim (17 days)
History Test (5 days)
Spanish Exam (13 days)
Women's Chorus Concert (12 days)
launch a website - ICOM - (2 days)
CAP ???? I don't even know!
AND I'M SURE I'M FORGETTING THINGS...
So, In summary. Please pray for me. I am not trying to have a woe is me pity party, simply asking for prayer. After seeing all of these things I feel like I am defeated. Please partner with me to stay calm, not hate my professors and possibly that some will have mercy.. Also, that the stress does not effect me much..
<3
Friday, March 9, 2012
Glory to God
Well, seek Him in times of praise and in trouble. Unfortunately the seating arrangements did not end up changing. I am trusting in Him that I may not feel ill on the entire trip. I have a history of being incredibly neaseaus behind the engines. We will see.
This issue also creates other issues because now when I get home I have to call Orbitz and get a refund for the Economy Plus seat I had reserved. I am incredibly disappointed in the services.
This flight has been overbooked, my seat has been given away and I will most likely end up ill. BUT! Jesus Christ is still sovereign over everything. He is Lord of all and protects me through everything.
I'll let you know I'm four hours how the flight was. Prayers for safe travels and no illness to ORD.
<3
This issue also creates other issues because now when I get home I have to call Orbitz and get a refund for the Economy Plus seat I had reserved. I am incredibly disappointed in the services.
This flight has been overbooked, my seat has been given away and I will most likely end up ill. BUT! Jesus Christ is still sovereign over everything. He is Lord of all and protects me through everything.
I'll let you know I'm four hours how the flight was. Prayers for safe travels and no illness to ORD.
<3
SEA to ORD and suspicious bibles
My farewell breakfast was biscuits and gravy at Shakabrah. Be jealous. Be very jealous. Mt. Rainer looked majestic this morning. Just floating in the clouds.
After the beautiful drive from Tacoma to SeaTac, the chaos began.
Yesterday when I checked into my flight, I noticed my seat had been changed. I continued in the process and would ask at the desk in the morning. Well, its was now morning and the question had arose again... Unfortunately, the lady at the counter could not help me but said those at the gate may be able to help. So, then through security I go!
Huh? My bag is needing checked?! So then I hastily gather my belongings and step aside. Apparently, my BIBLE was suspicious. I put it in the same exact spot as when I came. But I was freaking out for about 2 minutes.. but after a rescan all is well.
As I arrive in terminal N, I search for a restroom and Starbucks. To my relief I found both. :) Shortly after, I approached the counter and asked the nice ladies behind there. She explained that they are currently workign on another flight but in about 30 mintues, the attendants who will work on my flight will be here soon.. The only available seat on the plane is in 1st class, and this whole situation is upsetting because I had the seat reserved already. It was confirmed..
All I can do is trust in the Lord that He will provide or take care of me on the plane.. Now it is a waiting game. I just know I would love to not be nauseous for four hours as I sit in the back of the plane..
<3
After the beautiful drive from Tacoma to SeaTac, the chaos began.
Yesterday when I checked into my flight, I noticed my seat had been changed. I continued in the process and would ask at the desk in the morning. Well, its was now morning and the question had arose again... Unfortunately, the lady at the counter could not help me but said those at the gate may be able to help. So, then through security I go!
troll lol lol la lol lol la
Huh? My bag is needing checked?! So then I hastily gather my belongings and step aside. Apparently, my BIBLE was suspicious. I put it in the same exact spot as when I came. But I was freaking out for about 2 minutes.. but after a rescan all is well.
As I arrive in terminal N, I search for a restroom and Starbucks. To my relief I found both. :) Shortly after, I approached the counter and asked the nice ladies behind there. She explained that they are currently workign on another flight but in about 30 mintues, the attendants who will work on my flight will be here soon.. The only available seat on the plane is in 1st class, and this whole situation is upsetting because I had the seat reserved already. It was confirmed..
All I can do is trust in the Lord that He will provide or take care of me on the plane.. Now it is a waiting game. I just know I would love to not be nauseous for four hours as I sit in the back of the plane..
<3
Thursday
Well, today was my last day in Tacoma. It all comes to a bittersweet end. Tacoma is definately a place I can see myself ending up..
He is doing big things.
Today, we finished up the website. In less than 12 days, Network Tacoma will have a website of teh 21st century. :) As people may complement it, please, give glory to God for the gift He has enabled me with. No glory to me.
It has been an honor to serve this whole week and literally, take a break. While I was busy every day with activites and errands and tasks, mentally this was a very relaxing break. I meet so many people, learned several new things, and most importantly have grown significantly closer to God's will and trusting Him.
Now is a season of life of waiting. I need to be perfectly content in this. For the last year, I have been asking His plan to be revealed and how I can work towards "that" goal. For the past year, there has been no answer. So I am interpreting this as a season of waiting. I am blessed with the opportunity to go to school, I am blessed with a roof over my head and food on my plate. I am so incredibly blessed, and I need to soak up these blessings and learn much in my season of waiting.
Everyone has seasons. Some of action, rest, recovery, healing and various others. In preparation for the next season of my life, I pray that I may trust Him fully in what ever His will is for my life. I desire a life of His plan, His glory, and His will. I look forward to the future when I can look back on a decision and say "I knew I should do this."
I was called to Tacoma for a reason.. In the next three years, lets figure out why.
<3
He is doing big things.
Today, we finished up the website. In less than 12 days, Network Tacoma will have a website of teh 21st century. :) As people may complement it, please, give glory to God for the gift He has enabled me with. No glory to me.
It has been an honor to serve this whole week and literally, take a break. While I was busy every day with activites and errands and tasks, mentally this was a very relaxing break. I meet so many people, learned several new things, and most importantly have grown significantly closer to God's will and trusting Him.
Now is a season of life of waiting. I need to be perfectly content in this. For the last year, I have been asking His plan to be revealed and how I can work towards "that" goal. For the past year, there has been no answer. So I am interpreting this as a season of waiting. I am blessed with the opportunity to go to school, I am blessed with a roof over my head and food on my plate. I am so incredibly blessed, and I need to soak up these blessings and learn much in my season of waiting.
Everyone has seasons. Some of action, rest, recovery, healing and various others. In preparation for the next season of my life, I pray that I may trust Him fully in what ever His will is for my life. I desire a life of His plan, His glory, and His will. I look forward to the future when I can look back on a decision and say "I knew I should do this."
I was called to Tacoma for a reason.. In the next three years, lets figure out why.
<3
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Wait it's Wednesday
Yeah.. I'm playing the whole catchy name game.. haha :)
Today was super awesome. We went in this morning, got some web stuff done then it was already lunch time! Lunch was at Southern Kitchen. I drank sweet tea out of a mason jar.. that's one more thing to cross off my bucket list. The food was delightful there.
After lunch, we went to Shakabrah's to work on the website. Wondering what the password to the wifi was, this is the conversation we had with the staff:
(Us) What's your pa-
(Staff) Breakfast with a capital B
(Us) Okay. [looked at each other]
Then the discussion of hipsters came up and good times were had.
After Shakabrah's we went to Chambers Bay and chilled at the park.. watched the ocean, the Olympic Mountains and an amazing sunset. Also, all day long Mt. Rainer was out and shining. I was in awe all day long because it just is so incredibly gorgeous that "this isn't real life." I'm not entirely sure how many times I said that! haha. But really, Mt. Rainer was so beautiful today.
After a wonderful Wednesday, we finished it off with dinner with Paige and watching Hugo. As my week comes to a close I am really trying to savor everything God is doing and will do. I think it's too soon to say whether or not I'll be back in Tacoma anytime soon, but God definitely is going to keep me involved in Network. As I've been working on the website, I've also agreed to help update it. This, I know, will be a total blessing to Network because things can get pretty crazy around here but updating the website is something I can do that shouldn't take me too long.
I'm excited to see what the next three years of my life looks like and this time off of school has definitely been a good time to step back and examine areas that have needed attention or thought. As I plan to move forward in my life, I pray that I will take back the bold faith that is exampled here by the members of SOMA & Network and apply it to my life. That may be, perhaps, the lesson I have learned most.. Our faith is a daily commitment, something to be lived out at all moments of the day. Your faith should be you life, not just an event on Sundays or when things aren't going well.
On that note, I sign off and look forward to a day filled with technological jargon as we finish up the website and make final touches before dealing with companies to transfer hosting, emails, domains and all other things involved with a non-profit website. Please partner with me in prayers that this update into the 21st century for Network will transition smoothly and this new site will be a way to help for years and years to come.
<3
Today was super awesome. We went in this morning, got some web stuff done then it was already lunch time! Lunch was at Southern Kitchen. I drank sweet tea out of a mason jar.. that's one more thing to cross off my bucket list. The food was delightful there.
After lunch, we went to Shakabrah's to work on the website. Wondering what the password to the wifi was, this is the conversation we had with the staff:
(Us) What's your pa-
(Staff) Breakfast with a capital B
(Us) Okay. [looked at each other]
Then the discussion of hipsters came up and good times were had.
After Shakabrah's we went to Chambers Bay and chilled at the park.. watched the ocean, the Olympic Mountains and an amazing sunset. Also, all day long Mt. Rainer was out and shining. I was in awe all day long because it just is so incredibly gorgeous that "this isn't real life." I'm not entirely sure how many times I said that! haha. But really, Mt. Rainer was so beautiful today.
After a wonderful Wednesday, we finished it off with dinner with Paige and watching Hugo. As my week comes to a close I am really trying to savor everything God is doing and will do. I think it's too soon to say whether or not I'll be back in Tacoma anytime soon, but God definitely is going to keep me involved in Network. As I've been working on the website, I've also agreed to help update it. This, I know, will be a total blessing to Network because things can get pretty crazy around here but updating the website is something I can do that shouldn't take me too long.
I'm excited to see what the next three years of my life looks like and this time off of school has definitely been a good time to step back and examine areas that have needed attention or thought. As I plan to move forward in my life, I pray that I will take back the bold faith that is exampled here by the members of SOMA & Network and apply it to my life. That may be, perhaps, the lesson I have learned most.. Our faith is a daily commitment, something to be lived out at all moments of the day. Your faith should be you life, not just an event on Sundays or when things aren't going well.
On that note, I sign off and look forward to a day filled with technological jargon as we finish up the website and make final touches before dealing with companies to transfer hosting, emails, domains and all other things involved with a non-profit website. Please partner with me in prayers that this update into the 21st century for Network will transition smoothly and this new site will be a way to help for years and years to come.
<3
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Oh it's Tuesday?
Wow.. so much is happening in my days here.
So far today:
- good morning
- Starbucks (Tall Carmel Latte w/ Carmel Drizzle)
Network
- me time
- Staff meeting
- website
- Lunch at Fruggles with Kirstan
- errands with Kirstan
later:
DNA group
who knows!
My time here is really being used. I'm so welcomed here and it's great. He is doing great things in my life right now. I'm not sure how I can really word this but God is cultivating my heart for His Kingdom and how I can best fit in to serve. I know this sounds crazy, but can you partner with me to pray for my future? You may be feeling like that is far away but in all reality, it's within 3 years. I only have 2 years left of school, so what does that timeline look like - how do I pursue Kingdom work while using my talents I am learning in school? Also, for the relationship between Billy and I and how that will play out. I mean.. c'mon, we all know it's leading up to marriage but how does His timeline look and give us the patience, wisdom and trust to follow it. Another thing about our relationship is pray that we continue to follow the Holy Spirit in all of our actions, both individually and as a couple. Being here in Tacoma with the Landon's is really giving me a good idea of what it's like to live out God's word. Its very encouraging.
<3
So far today:
- good morning
- Starbucks (Tall Carmel Latte w/ Carmel Drizzle)
Network
- me time
- Staff meeting
- website
- Lunch at Fruggles with Kirstan
- errands with Kirstan
later:
DNA group
who knows!
My time here is really being used. I'm so welcomed here and it's great. He is doing great things in my life right now. I'm not sure how I can really word this but God is cultivating my heart for His Kingdom and how I can best fit in to serve. I know this sounds crazy, but can you partner with me to pray for my future? You may be feeling like that is far away but in all reality, it's within 3 years. I only have 2 years left of school, so what does that timeline look like - how do I pursue Kingdom work while using my talents I am learning in school? Also, for the relationship between Billy and I and how that will play out. I mean.. c'mon, we all know it's leading up to marriage but how does His timeline look and give us the patience, wisdom and trust to follow it. Another thing about our relationship is pray that we continue to follow the Holy Spirit in all of our actions, both individually and as a couple. Being here in Tacoma with the Landon's is really giving me a good idea of what it's like to live out God's word. Its very encouraging.
<3
Monday, March 5, 2012
He is alive
It's true, He is alive everywhere.
It's really cool when a church becomes life. Not just like "new life" but when a church lives so intentionally that there is no separation between church on Sundays and life Monday through Saturday. The one thing I have noticed most about being here with the Landons and their friends, is that church is a daily life style. Here, the people of SOMA aren't afraid to admit that they are broken, in need, or hurting. The fear of being judged is not looming over every corner. As a church, they have a really good understanding of the grace of God that looks past our brokenness, which in turn leads the congregation to look past it's own brokenness and love each other.
All of this is as an outsider looking in, but even then, I find myself saying "I want that." I want a community that is so intentional, you are not scared to say the word God in public. He should be involved in everything.
This morning, Greg asked me what my goal was to get out of this trip, what did I want to happen inside me. I responded with transformation and a good life experience. After my day at SOMA, working with Terrah, Greg, and Kirstan, some of the SOMA ladies took me to downtown Tacoma. The conversations at dinner, and at Paige's house afterwards were so life focused. There was no shame in the name of the Lord. Just gospel intentions and intentional living. On the ride there, Mary said that it just becomes a habit. That's one good habit I hope to have one day.
I'm sure you didn't want a sermon (above) but this what has been happening. Now I know some of you wonder why did I have to go all the way to Tacoma to learn these lessons, why couldn't I just stay in Danville? Well, it has become very clear to me that SOMA is a way of life. From every aspect of the way I see their church working, I see a whole life picture, not just a place to sing songs on Sundays. It's something I really want to see implemented in my life. Also it was Sunday night as I sat upon a hill in a park in Seattle, looking at the city, the space needle, and the ocean that I began to wonder where He will put us. I began to get this comfort of Seattle. Yes, its a busy city. Yes, there is no corn. Yes, there are TONS of hills. Yes, there are tons os high ways. But my God is bigger than any obstacle man can make and if we are supposed to be in the Seattle area, I say give me the sign Lord! Now the next step is praying and waiting. Just about 2 years until we need to know..
As far as my day went, it was a lovely day overall. What started off as a typical rainy Washington day ended in a sunny & chilly evening.
- good morning!
- errands with Greg
- Starbucks (venti shaken black tea - 1/2 C 1/2 R)
- off to Network
at Network, I worked with Terrah to figure out some stuff for the food pantry that they are trying to mobilize
- Lunch @ Shakabrah's (french dip)
- website & auction work
- errands with Kirstan
- LADIES NIGHT!!!
- bedtime
I know this isn't very detailed but He is good and the lessons I've learned can't really be expressed in words...
It's really cool when a church becomes life. Not just like "new life" but when a church lives so intentionally that there is no separation between church on Sundays and life Monday through Saturday. The one thing I have noticed most about being here with the Landons and their friends, is that church is a daily life style. Here, the people of SOMA aren't afraid to admit that they are broken, in need, or hurting. The fear of being judged is not looming over every corner. As a church, they have a really good understanding of the grace of God that looks past our brokenness, which in turn leads the congregation to look past it's own brokenness and love each other.
All of this is as an outsider looking in, but even then, I find myself saying "I want that." I want a community that is so intentional, you are not scared to say the word God in public. He should be involved in everything.
This morning, Greg asked me what my goal was to get out of this trip, what did I want to happen inside me. I responded with transformation and a good life experience. After my day at SOMA, working with Terrah, Greg, and Kirstan, some of the SOMA ladies took me to downtown Tacoma. The conversations at dinner, and at Paige's house afterwards were so life focused. There was no shame in the name of the Lord. Just gospel intentions and intentional living. On the ride there, Mary said that it just becomes a habit. That's one good habit I hope to have one day.
I'm sure you didn't want a sermon (above) but this what has been happening. Now I know some of you wonder why did I have to go all the way to Tacoma to learn these lessons, why couldn't I just stay in Danville? Well, it has become very clear to me that SOMA is a way of life. From every aspect of the way I see their church working, I see a whole life picture, not just a place to sing songs on Sundays. It's something I really want to see implemented in my life. Also it was Sunday night as I sat upon a hill in a park in Seattle, looking at the city, the space needle, and the ocean that I began to wonder where He will put us. I began to get this comfort of Seattle. Yes, its a busy city. Yes, there is no corn. Yes, there are TONS of hills. Yes, there are tons os high ways. But my God is bigger than any obstacle man can make and if we are supposed to be in the Seattle area, I say give me the sign Lord! Now the next step is praying and waiting. Just about 2 years until we need to know..
As far as my day went, it was a lovely day overall. What started off as a typical rainy Washington day ended in a sunny & chilly evening.
- good morning!
- errands with Greg
- Starbucks (venti shaken black tea - 1/2 C 1/2 R)
- off to Network
at Network, I worked with Terrah to figure out some stuff for the food pantry that they are trying to mobilize
- Lunch @ Shakabrah's (french dip)
- website & auction work
- errands with Kirstan
- LADIES NIGHT!!!
- bedtime
I know this isn't very detailed but He is good and the lessons I've learned can't really be expressed in words...
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Hello Seattle
Yes yes, I hope you heard the Owl City song in your head right now. :)
My day began by awakening at 5:30a to a bright sky (not sunny just bright) and dozed on and off until 7a.
SOMA:
Today was a wonderful sermon at about 1 Corinthians 2:2-4.
- He works through our weakness
- Though we have nothing, we have everything, we have the Lord.
- Rely and trust in the Spirit, not your ability to be "smart"
Then it was off the Seattle.
Seattle highlights included:
- Pike Place Market featuring:
"One crab, clean it!"
The transformer man
Music of course!
Shopping
- down on the water:
Starbucks (I know, I didn't go to the original one because the line wrapped around and out the door!)
Ivar's - the closest thing to Irish fish n chips I've had in America
Gum wall - yeah.. Not just a tree, a whole wall!
- this one park
At the park we had a gorgeous view downtown Seattle. The sun was setting and the city was coming to life. It was in this moment I realized I might want to live here. Not necessarily IN Seattle, but perhaps a suburb. I know the music scene is hot, I don't think finding a job will be hard, and now I'm just praying for His will to be shown. I don't care where I am or what I'm doing as long as I know it I His will. That's the whole reason I'm in Tacoma in the first place!
I am already well rested but I am off to bed once again for a wonderful day tomorrow filled with time at Network and dinner and fellowship with some of the ladies.
PS: note from yesterday, really cool coffee shop (somewhere close to me, I think) called Metronome.
<3
My day began by awakening at 5:30a to a bright sky (not sunny just bright) and dozed on and off until 7a.
SOMA:
Today was a wonderful sermon at about 1 Corinthians 2:2-4.
- He works through our weakness
- Though we have nothing, we have everything, we have the Lord.
- Rely and trust in the Spirit, not your ability to be "smart"
Then it was off the Seattle.
Seattle highlights included:
- Pike Place Market featuring:
"One crab, clean it!"
The transformer man
Music of course!
Shopping
- down on the water:
Starbucks (I know, I didn't go to the original one because the line wrapped around and out the door!)
Ivar's - the closest thing to Irish fish n chips I've had in America
Gum wall - yeah.. Not just a tree, a whole wall!
- this one park
At the park we had a gorgeous view downtown Seattle. The sun was setting and the city was coming to life. It was in this moment I realized I might want to live here. Not necessarily IN Seattle, but perhaps a suburb. I know the music scene is hot, I don't think finding a job will be hard, and now I'm just praying for His will to be shown. I don't care where I am or what I'm doing as long as I know it I His will. That's the whole reason I'm in Tacoma in the first place!
I am already well rested but I am off to bed once again for a wonderful day tomorrow filled with time at Network and dinner and fellowship with some of the ladies.
PS: note from yesterday, really cool coffee shop (somewhere close to me, I think) called Metronome.
<3
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Glory to God
If you don't follow me on Twitter, you should. Everyone should have a Twitter account even if you don't tweet. Anywho, had you been following me today you would have seen God working in His mysterious ways.
Delayed in IND led to me sprinting through gate C at ORD (very similar to the contestants in the Amazing Race) only to find a very much unexpected delay at my gate. This unexpected delay secured my ability to make my flight and also for my suitcase to be transferred over.
All I can say is praise the Lord.
This truly was divine intervention, and I now know what it was like for the followers of Jesus to weep in joy. When He touches your life in only a way He can, it's something truly special.
Well, tomorrow is a wonderful day filled with SOMA fun and then heading to the slightly larger city of Seattle for fungicides that include the gum wall, Pike Place, and as already stated, adventures at SOMA.
Keep posted and make a Twitter account.
<3
Delayed in IND led to me sprinting through gate C at ORD (very similar to the contestants in the Amazing Race) only to find a very much unexpected delay at my gate. This unexpected delay secured my ability to make my flight and also for my suitcase to be transferred over.
All I can say is praise the Lord.
This truly was divine intervention, and I now know what it was like for the followers of Jesus to weep in joy. When He touches your life in only a way He can, it's something truly special.
Well, tomorrow is a wonderful day filled with SOMA fun and then heading to the slightly larger city of Seattle for fungicides that include the gum wall, Pike Place, and as already stated, adventures at SOMA.
Keep posted and make a Twitter account.
<3
IND to ORD
It's real, it's finally happening. I woke up to immediately praise Him because He made this all possible.
So.. I know you probably don't want to know everything about my morning, but I want to remember every moment. So here:
7:30a text from Orbitz, flight is on time.
then the excitement began!
8:30 arrive at IND
check in
Se-Cur-Ity! (I hope ya'll get this.. if not, watch this video at 1:30 in)
Starbucks
people mover
gate A17
I am so excited, blessed, and in general just happy! How many other college kids want to go to Seattle where there is it's cold, wet, and hardly an sun? (I'll give you a second to look around...)
No? Can't find any? Me! Sign me up, any day! I know this week is going to be amazing! I am so excited.. and I get to time travel! ;)
I can't imagine doing anything else with this week off of school.. Honestly, I am speechless and in awe. I can't say anything else that I haven't said before.... besides I managed to make a pretty sick playlist that I'm proud of.
<3
So.. I know you probably don't want to know everything about my morning, but I want to remember every moment. So here:
7:30a text from Orbitz, flight is on time.
then the excitement began!
8:30 arrive at IND
check in
Se-Cur-Ity! (I hope ya'll get this.. if not, watch this video at 1:30 in)
Starbucks
people mover
gate A17
I am so excited, blessed, and in general just happy! How many other college kids want to go to Seattle where there is it's cold, wet, and hardly an sun? (I'll give you a second to look around...)
No? Can't find any? Me! Sign me up, any day! I know this week is going to be amazing! I am so excited.. and I get to time travel! ;)
I can't imagine doing anything else with this week off of school.. Honestly, I am speechless and in awe. I can't say anything else that I haven't said before.... besides I managed to make a pretty sick playlist that I'm proud of.
<3
Friday, March 2, 2012
SB 2012!
Finally!
After projects and papers and quizzes and tests have been finished, the time is here. Spring Break 2012!
Hopefully by now you are aware that I am going to Seattle to do work with Network Tacoma. I will be doing much more than just helping Network. Some of my tasks include jump starting the new website, helping to organize a silent auction and food drive, as well as "living life" with the Landon's. Unfortunately, even during my break I must complete some homework but I'm hoping my layover in ORD on my way home and the 4 1/2 hour leg from ORD to SEA each way will knock most of that out.
Through the duration of the week I will be doing several blogs. Possibly more than one a day. Check back often. :)
So, what's been going on with me lately? Well, these past 5 days have been total proof that the Spirit can carry us. Mondays are usually my hardest day, days that I dread, but I was completely carried and guided thorough it. The week had an obnoxious amount of to-dos that just kept getting crossed of faster than I could realize.
He is so good, and He provides, always.
As I reflect on the process of how this trip came to be, it was all by the guidance of His hands. Which is a glorious thing. It's really awe-some (awe & wonder not "rock on, sweet bro") to know that He blesses the work of his people, especially when it is in His glory.
Tonight, I will spend my first night home preparing to leave for the west coast. This is my first adventure alone.
Prayer requests:
- safe travels
- no complications in ticketing
- acclimation to the time change well
- SOMA (the church I will be attending) just to see how it has grown
- Tacoma as a city - that His light will shine bright. Did you know that the Seattle area is one of the least churched areas in America?
- the people I will interact with, may I build lasting friendships and relationships
- divine appointments
- that I may take every opportunity to praise Him, seek Him, and most importantly: listen to Him
<3
After projects and papers and quizzes and tests have been finished, the time is here. Spring Break 2012!
Hopefully by now you are aware that I am going to Seattle to do work with Network Tacoma. I will be doing much more than just helping Network. Some of my tasks include jump starting the new website, helping to organize a silent auction and food drive, as well as "living life" with the Landon's. Unfortunately, even during my break I must complete some homework but I'm hoping my layover in ORD on my way home and the 4 1/2 hour leg from ORD to SEA each way will knock most of that out.
Through the duration of the week I will be doing several blogs. Possibly more than one a day. Check back often. :)
So, what's been going on with me lately? Well, these past 5 days have been total proof that the Spirit can carry us. Mondays are usually my hardest day, days that I dread, but I was completely carried and guided thorough it. The week had an obnoxious amount of to-dos that just kept getting crossed of faster than I could realize.
He is so good, and He provides, always.
As I reflect on the process of how this trip came to be, it was all by the guidance of His hands. Which is a glorious thing. It's really awe-some (awe & wonder not "rock on, sweet bro") to know that He blesses the work of his people, especially when it is in His glory.
Tonight, I will spend my first night home preparing to leave for the west coast. This is my first adventure alone.
Prayer requests:
- safe travels
- no complications in ticketing
- acclimation to the time change well
- SOMA (the church I will be attending) just to see how it has grown
- Tacoma as a city - that His light will shine bright. Did you know that the Seattle area is one of the least churched areas in America?
- the people I will interact with, may I build lasting friendships and relationships
- divine appointments
- that I may take every opportunity to praise Him, seek Him, and most importantly: listen to Him
<3
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
5 years from now...
In 5 years, where do I see myself?
This is a question all too familiar for college students. Honestly, I don't know. I don't think I'll be able to answer that question until I graduate, and even then, that may not be where I am in 5 years.
Where do I want to be in 5 years?
Now that is a much easier question. I have several hopes, aspirations, and dreams for myself in 5 years but the most important is praising God daily. Ideally, I would love to work for a Christian label, studio, or company in either Seattle, Nashville, or Maryland. Little steps though. There will be jobs I don't like, there will be people who aren't my favorite, but God has put them in my life for a reason. And I hope during the next 5 years I will be able to take every opportunity to share His name.
My determination to pursue the music industry is something that I wholeheartedly believe is a God given passion. There have been so many people trying to stand in my way, so many road blocks have come up but the passion is not dying, it's simply growing stronger. The people who have heard me mix, know my talent. Professors and staff here at BSU though, don't know my talent and it's become a real challenge to prove this. Currently I am struggling with the system to try to get the most out of my education here and modify my degree toward a music production rather than TV/Film production. This has become a lot of back and fourth and waiting. As Course Request is soon approaching, I have yet to finalize anything.
Before mid-March (when Course Request opens), if you could partner with me in praying for this to work out I would greatly appreciate this. I am willing to jump through all of the hoops, I am willing to do what ever I can do to make this work. If I didn't think this could happen I wouldn't believe in it so strongly, but it's just a matter of the right people saying yes. My specific prayer request is this:
- that God may shine in any circumstance involving this situation
- I may be able to handle the decision of "the right people"
- I ultimately will be able to pursue this passion in any way I can
<3
This is a question all too familiar for college students. Honestly, I don't know. I don't think I'll be able to answer that question until I graduate, and even then, that may not be where I am in 5 years.
Where do I want to be in 5 years?
Now that is a much easier question. I have several hopes, aspirations, and dreams for myself in 5 years but the most important is praising God daily. Ideally, I would love to work for a Christian label, studio, or company in either Seattle, Nashville, or Maryland. Little steps though. There will be jobs I don't like, there will be people who aren't my favorite, but God has put them in my life for a reason. And I hope during the next 5 years I will be able to take every opportunity to share His name.
My determination to pursue the music industry is something that I wholeheartedly believe is a God given passion. There have been so many people trying to stand in my way, so many road blocks have come up but the passion is not dying, it's simply growing stronger. The people who have heard me mix, know my talent. Professors and staff here at BSU though, don't know my talent and it's become a real challenge to prove this. Currently I am struggling with the system to try to get the most out of my education here and modify my degree toward a music production rather than TV/Film production. This has become a lot of back and fourth and waiting. As Course Request is soon approaching, I have yet to finalize anything.
Before mid-March (when Course Request opens), if you could partner with me in praying for this to work out I would greatly appreciate this. I am willing to jump through all of the hoops, I am willing to do what ever I can do to make this work. If I didn't think this could happen I wouldn't believe in it so strongly, but it's just a matter of the right people saying yes. My specific prayer request is this:
- that God may shine in any circumstance involving this situation
- I may be able to handle the decision of "the right people"
- I ultimately will be able to pursue this passion in any way I can
<3
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
well then..
So here's some of the timeline of events recently.
- sick all last week
- 2/13/12
Daddy was in a car accident. Jeep, The Green Machine, was totaled but luckily my daddy is fine. He is taking a week off, may need more time thought to heal. He is just very stiff.. but so thankful that he is okay! Thanks for all of the prayers on Monday.. and keep em coming for a quick recovery and the bills to be taken care of in an orderly fashion..
-Valentines Day
Wow.. not even to be cliche and cheesy but I have an amazing man.. There were so many great conversations we had yesterday and I can't wait to see what else God has in store for our lives.
-2/15/12
Well, we all know that the candy is on sale. But more importantly I had a huge test in Spanish today that I actually think I didn't fail. That's exciting.
Upcoming Future
-work
after having to take off both of my shifts last week, i have to work W/R/F/S.. if that doesn't make sense basically, I have to work everyday the rest of the week, including 3:50am on Sunday morning. This really wouldn't be a big deal if I were recovered from this cold but I just can't seem to kick it.
-SEATTLE!
AHHHHHHHHHHH! It's so close. It's exciting. 16 days until I head over to the West Coast! I'm excited to go back to Seattle but also really excited to serve Network. I should probably chill out before I explode or something..
Ummm.. ya know. 19 credit hours. I hate this.. its dumb. I never want to take 19 credit hours again. It's a lot of work..
-finding a job
apparently no one is hiring right now in Muncie but come April (when people put in thier notices) they will be. It's just very frustrating right now because I need to secure a job before school gets over, so that I can stay in Muncie for the summer.
Prayer requests:
- dad's recovery
- my health (getting over this cold) I would love for it to be gone by Spring Break
- rest (working my shifts this week/weekend will be rough)
<3
- sick all last week
- 2/13/12
Daddy was in a car accident. Jeep, The Green Machine, was totaled but luckily my daddy is fine. He is taking a week off, may need more time thought to heal. He is just very stiff.. but so thankful that he is okay! Thanks for all of the prayers on Monday.. and keep em coming for a quick recovery and the bills to be taken care of in an orderly fashion..
-Valentines Day
Wow.. not even to be cliche and cheesy but I have an amazing man.. There were so many great conversations we had yesterday and I can't wait to see what else God has in store for our lives.
-2/15/12
Well, we all know that the candy is on sale. But more importantly I had a huge test in Spanish today that I actually think I didn't fail. That's exciting.
Upcoming Future
-work
after having to take off both of my shifts last week, i have to work W/R/F/S.. if that doesn't make sense basically, I have to work everyday the rest of the week, including 3:50am on Sunday morning. This really wouldn't be a big deal if I were recovered from this cold but I just can't seem to kick it.
-SEATTLE!
AHHHHHHHHHHH! It's so close. It's exciting. 16 days until I head over to the West Coast! I'm excited to go back to Seattle but also really excited to serve Network. I should probably chill out before I explode or something..
Ummm.. ya know. 19 credit hours. I hate this.. its dumb. I never want to take 19 credit hours again. It's a lot of work..
-finding a job
apparently no one is hiring right now in Muncie but come April (when people put in thier notices) they will be. It's just very frustrating right now because I need to secure a job before school gets over, so that I can stay in Muncie for the summer.
Prayer requests:
- dad's recovery
- my health (getting over this cold) I would love for it to be gone by Spring Break
- rest (working my shifts this week/weekend will be rough)
<3
Saturday, February 11, 2012
300 kleenex later...
Yes...
As I work on my 3rd box of Kleenex, 1/2 a box of Mucinex D and 5 days later, I have had ups and downs all week. Through canceling classes, minor panic attacks to finish school work, meetings on G+ and Facebook and constant email communication is what the last 5 days looked like.
It was crazy.
But, I am feeling better. Not 100%... but better.
Ahhhh, Seattle is 3 weeks away.. crazy. Crazy.
Prayers:
nerves for flying alone to be calmed
health
nerves for Mom & Dad (this is the first time their Baby Girl is going off alone)
God to let me "see/hear" his plans
Also, I missed several classes last week and it would be awesome if I wasn't way behind.
<3
As I work on my 3rd box of Kleenex, 1/2 a box of Mucinex D and 5 days later, I have had ups and downs all week. Through canceling classes, minor panic attacks to finish school work, meetings on G+ and Facebook and constant email communication is what the last 5 days looked like.
It was crazy.
But, I am feeling better. Not 100%... but better.
Ahhhh, Seattle is 3 weeks away.. crazy. Crazy.
Prayers:
nerves for flying alone to be calmed
health
nerves for Mom & Dad (this is the first time their Baby Girl is going off alone)
God to let me "see/hear" his plans
Also, I missed several classes last week and it would be awesome if I wasn't way behind.
<3
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
a whole box of kleenex later..
well.. the bug has hit. since about Sunday I have been feeling awful. Since Monday I have successfully gone through an entire boy of Puff's plus, my nose is still painfully red (despite the plus lotion), and I now sound like a boy going through puberty when my voice actually decided to work.
On top of being sick, I have had to cancel both of my shifts for work this week, have a major project due Friday, and have had to skip Aerobics and women's chorus. I never skip class.. so its killing me to have to sit at home and not be in class.
The plus side to being sick, is having a lot of time on my hands. I have a huge project due Friday and now I have the rest of the evening and tomorrow after noon to do it. Among the stress of being sick this project is a bit much and other things are being demanded of my time as well.
I would really appreciate a few prayers thrown up.
-health to return soon, if not healthy soon just my voice back
-God transforming my heart to prepare me for Seattle
-finding a job in Muncie for this summer, I was notified that 2 of the jobs I applied for I did not receive
-healthy for Margaux that she will not catch what I have
Thanks
<3
On top of being sick, I have had to cancel both of my shifts for work this week, have a major project due Friday, and have had to skip Aerobics and women's chorus. I never skip class.. so its killing me to have to sit at home and not be in class.
The plus side to being sick, is having a lot of time on my hands. I have a huge project due Friday and now I have the rest of the evening and tomorrow after noon to do it. Among the stress of being sick this project is a bit much and other things are being demanded of my time as well.
I would really appreciate a few prayers thrown up.
-health to return soon, if not healthy soon just my voice back
-God transforming my heart to prepare me for Seattle
-finding a job in Muncie for this summer, I was notified that 2 of the jobs I applied for I did not receive
-healthy for Margaux that she will not catch what I have
Thanks
<3
Saturday, February 4, 2012
God is still God
As many of you know, I applied for a CIY MOVE Summer Internship.
This morning, like every morning after my alarm goes off, I checked my email. This not only gives me a few more minutes under the covers but gets my brain going before my body. Well.. a much awaited email from CIY was waiting in my inbox.
After reading the email in its entirity, I soon realized this summer was goign to be awesome. Because God is still God. No matter what.
Confused? Well, I did not get the internship but I was ready for that. As the month of January progressed my heart began to realize that maybe I would be in Muncie this summer. As we found a house, signed a May lease, discovered the Ichthus lineup and began to hunt for a job, I almost wanted to stay in Muncie as much as I wanted to get the CIY internship.
God has His plan, I'm just navigating through it. I know this is part of it. Maybe I'm supposed to go to Ichthus and hear a really awesome sermon, or have a crazy awesome God moment. Maybe I'll get a really awesome job where I get to share God with someone everyday. Maybe, just maybe.. (wink wink) He has something really great in store for me this summer, and CIY just wasn't part of that plan.
It's silly to fight God. I'm not angry that I didn't get the internship. Not one bit, because I know God can do awesome things in Muncie with me just as much as He can traveling with CIY.
When some might look at God and ask "Why not?" I'm looking at Him asking "What's next?"
<3
This morning, like every morning after my alarm goes off, I checked my email. This not only gives me a few more minutes under the covers but gets my brain going before my body. Well.. a much awaited email from CIY was waiting in my inbox.
After reading the email in its entirity, I soon realized this summer was goign to be awesome. Because God is still God. No matter what.
Confused? Well, I did not get the internship but I was ready for that. As the month of January progressed my heart began to realize that maybe I would be in Muncie this summer. As we found a house, signed a May lease, discovered the Ichthus lineup and began to hunt for a job, I almost wanted to stay in Muncie as much as I wanted to get the CIY internship.
God has His plan, I'm just navigating through it. I know this is part of it. Maybe I'm supposed to go to Ichthus and hear a really awesome sermon, or have a crazy awesome God moment. Maybe I'll get a really awesome job where I get to share God with someone everyday. Maybe, just maybe.. (wink wink) He has something really great in store for me this summer, and CIY just wasn't part of that plan.
It's silly to fight God. I'm not angry that I didn't get the internship. Not one bit, because I know God can do awesome things in Muncie with me just as much as He can traveling with CIY.
When some might look at God and ask "Why not?" I'm looking at Him asking "What's next?"
<3
Monday, January 30, 2012
SAI
Last week was the beginning of a process called pledging.. It involved 4 get together with the Sisters of Sigma Alpha Iota at Ball State University.
Yesterday the sisters voted on who to give a bid to. A bid is basically them saying we love, be our sister. In the moments before a meeting with the VP, to see if I recieved a bid. I was nervous, excited, scared, and worried all wrapped up into a feeling of comfort. No matter how that meeting went, God has already written the next chapter of my life.
Now the awkward part could be that I'm living with 3 other sisters next year so if I didn't get a bid.. well you can imagine how that is awkward.
Here goes!
As I walk up the stairs in MU from the coke lobby to the SAI Office thoughts race, doubt raises and I wonder.. did they like me?
I wander around the second floor looking for the room. I see Kari sitting in an office and my heart starts to race. She has me step in and sit down. "I have to do this with everyone" and she hands me an envelope.
I stuggle to open it. I open the top like a normal person but the cardstock is stuck inside. So excited and nervous, I just rip the envelope in half.
I got a bid.
From here on the rest of the week are various days and Thursday I turn in my bid to them to join. This is very exciting.. and there will be many more comments to come. But last week was so worth it.
Yesterday the sisters voted on who to give a bid to. A bid is basically them saying we love, be our sister. In the moments before a meeting with the VP, to see if I recieved a bid. I was nervous, excited, scared, and worried all wrapped up into a feeling of comfort. No matter how that meeting went, God has already written the next chapter of my life.
Now the awkward part could be that I'm living with 3 other sisters next year so if I didn't get a bid.. well you can imagine how that is awkward.
Here goes!
As I walk up the stairs in MU from the coke lobby to the SAI Office thoughts race, doubt raises and I wonder.. did they like me?
I wander around the second floor looking for the room. I see Kari sitting in an office and my heart starts to race. She has me step in and sit down. "I have to do this with everyone" and she hands me an envelope.
I stuggle to open it. I open the top like a normal person but the cardstock is stuck inside. So excited and nervous, I just rip the envelope in half.
I got a bid.
From here on the rest of the week are various days and Thursday I turn in my bid to them to join. This is very exciting.. and there will be many more comments to come. But last week was so worth it.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
running into the ground
ugh. so.. its sunday. that means a whole weeks has already passed.. dang! I'm so sleep deprived its not even funny..
Pledging SAI is goign great.. today there is the final "party" and the sisters are voting after the event. The week is as follows:
Bid Day
Day of Questioning
Day of Silence
Decision Day
It's a very exciting process.. We'll just have to see how monday goes!
Exciting factoid about Tuesday.
Tuesday is Jan 31st.
Jan 31st is the day that I find out about my CIY application!
I have worked WRF 1st shift and today 2nd shift and I'm so tired.. really needing some healing and rest. Also.. I'm not feeling well for some reason. Is it possible that your body retaliates against you?
Being 20 isn't much different from being 19.. hmm..
well.. i wish i could say good night but my day is just beginning.. good morning!
Pledging SAI is goign great.. today there is the final "party" and the sisters are voting after the event. The week is as follows:
Bid Day
Day of Questioning
Day of Silence
Decision Day
It's a very exciting process.. We'll just have to see how monday goes!
Exciting factoid about Tuesday.
Tuesday is Jan 31st.
Jan 31st is the day that I find out about my CIY application!
I have worked WRF 1st shift and today 2nd shift and I'm so tired.. really needing some healing and rest. Also.. I'm not feeling well for some reason. Is it possible that your body retaliates against you?
Being 20 isn't much different from being 19.. hmm..
well.. i wish i could say good night but my day is just beginning.. good morning!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
change is coming
don't worry.. i realize the font i picke out is hard to read and i will be chaning it toinight at work.
looking forward to the new changes!
looking forward to the new changes!
wordception !!!!!
Here is my first assignment for ICOM 210.. enjoy.
In just one aspect of my life, I realized that I know about 5%, don’t know about 30% and I have begun to realize that I didn’t even kn0w I didn’t know the rest. Which was the basis from the article.
From this piece, we learned a new way of categorizing our unknowns: “de-risking.” The author sums up that what we previously thought of as knowns, known unknowns, and unknown unknowns and converting the known unknowns (and the knowns) into knowns and converting the unknown unknowns into known unknowns. Too much knowing? Here’s a break down.
First 3 Categories:
Things We Know: knowns
Things We Know We Don’t Know: known unknowns
Things We Don’t Know We Don’t Know: unknown unknowns
“De-Risked” into 2 Categories:
Things We Know: knowns & known unknowns
Things We Know We Don’t Know: convert unknown unknowns to known unknowns
The reason the known unknowns go under Things We Know in the “de-risked” category is because we are aware that we don’t know everything and so the only things we truly don’t know are what are unaware of that we don’t know. In other words, we don’t know that we don’t know the material or knowledge.
After you wrap your head around that, de-risking is a process that takes the unknown unknowns out of the equation, leaving you with only things you know and things you know you don’t know. Which really give you a platform to continue to learn about the things you know you don’t know.
To transition away from “knowing” everything, now that we know we don’t, I leave you with the Webster’s definition of knowledge and ask you, how much do you know?
We Know We Know That We Don’t Know…
Even before this article, I was aware that I didn’t know everything. I completely understood that and was fine with it. I thought I knew quite a bit though, for a 20 year old. After reading the article however, I quickly began to realize how little I really know and just how much I think I know.In just one aspect of my life, I realized that I know about 5%, don’t know about 30% and I have begun to realize that I didn’t even kn0w I didn’t know the rest. Which was the basis from the article.
From this piece, we learned a new way of categorizing our unknowns: “de-risking.” The author sums up that what we previously thought of as knowns, known unknowns, and unknown unknowns and converting the known unknowns (and the knowns) into knowns and converting the unknown unknowns into known unknowns. Too much knowing? Here’s a break down.
First 3 Categories:
Things We Know: knowns
Things We Know We Don’t Know: known unknowns
Things We Don’t Know We Don’t Know: unknown unknowns
“De-Risked” into 2 Categories:
Things We Know: knowns & known unknowns
Things We Know We Don’t Know: convert unknown unknowns to known unknowns
The reason the known unknowns go under Things We Know in the “de-risked” category is because we are aware that we don’t know everything and so the only things we truly don’t know are what are unaware of that we don’t know. In other words, we don’t know that we don’t know the material or knowledge.
After you wrap your head around that, de-risking is a process that takes the unknown unknowns out of the equation, leaving you with only things you know and things you know you don’t know. Which really give you a platform to continue to learn about the things you know you don’t know.
To transition away from “knowing” everything, now that we know we don’t, I leave you with the Webster’s definition of knowledge and ask you, how much do you know?
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
well look who's 20
look at that.. its my birthday, again.
I would like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes.. they really have brightened my day.
Also, I would like to say that apparently Gravity's gift to me was moving a sidewalk curb and slamming me into the ground at 8:15am this morning at the chirp light. My gift? A nice purple, brown and green bruise.. I think she's in cahoots with Earth..
Thank you too everyone who has shaped me into the person I am and will become as I step into my 20's. woah.. that sounds weird!
I would like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes.. they really have brightened my day.
Also, I would like to say that apparently Gravity's gift to me was moving a sidewalk curb and slamming me into the ground at 8:15am this morning at the chirp light. My gift? A nice purple, brown and green bruise.. I think she's in cahoots with Earth..
Thank you too everyone who has shaped me into the person I am and will become as I step into my 20's. woah.. that sounds weird!
Friday, January 20, 2012
patience
It is something I once had, have lost, and am trying to regain. Tonight, I struggle to stay awake for my shift and find myself being impatient and annoyed. Students who are coming in are being boisterous and well.. its a Thursday so some have "indulged".
I am reminded by the example of us to Jesus to be patient. We run, fight, kick, and scream away from Him but He is patient every time, loving and caring none the less ever.
Why don't we just understand? Why can't we just obey? Questions I ask myself all the time..
CIY Update:
Well.. my application is being looked at now. I'm not sure how many other applicants there were or how likely I am to get the position. Circumstances in Muncie have changed and I now have a May lease in a house. I am ready for either situation the Lord will deal me, but I'm so eager to know. If I do not get the CIY Internship, I am looking at the likely possibility of living in Muncie and getting a full time job. Don't worry - I'll still come home some over the summer..
Just wanted to keep you in the know..
School: Spanish is a different style than what I'm used to. History 150 is boring.. I've never enjoyed History. Aerobics is hilariously fun every time. Womens Chorus (WoCho) has been very difficult. It's hard for me not to get frustrated when we sing in solfedge and not the words.. I've been getting very lost & confused lately. Both my ICOM & CAP classes are going well (both internet based) and I'll get around to Photoshop eventually.. MMP is quite possibly my favorite class though. It is the best hour and a half on T/R every week. ummm.... I think that makes 19 credit hours..
SAI. Sigma Alpha Iota rushing/pledging starts next week.. I'm very excited to be doing this but it is very time consuming. Not only are there evernts T,W,R,F,Su I work W,R,F,Sa next week.. I'm crazy.
Well.. I think thats all I've got..
:D
I am reminded by the example of us to Jesus to be patient. We run, fight, kick, and scream away from Him but He is patient every time, loving and caring none the less ever.
Why don't we just understand? Why can't we just obey? Questions I ask myself all the time..
CIY Update:
Well.. my application is being looked at now. I'm not sure how many other applicants there were or how likely I am to get the position. Circumstances in Muncie have changed and I now have a May lease in a house. I am ready for either situation the Lord will deal me, but I'm so eager to know. If I do not get the CIY Internship, I am looking at the likely possibility of living in Muncie and getting a full time job. Don't worry - I'll still come home some over the summer..
Just wanted to keep you in the know..
School: Spanish is a different style than what I'm used to. History 150 is boring.. I've never enjoyed History. Aerobics is hilariously fun every time. Womens Chorus (WoCho) has been very difficult. It's hard for me not to get frustrated when we sing in solfedge and not the words.. I've been getting very lost & confused lately. Both my ICOM & CAP classes are going well (both internet based) and I'll get around to Photoshop eventually.. MMP is quite possibly my favorite class though. It is the best hour and a half on T/R every week. ummm.... I think that makes 19 credit hours..
SAI. Sigma Alpha Iota rushing/pledging starts next week.. I'm very excited to be doing this but it is very time consuming. Not only are there evernts T,W,R,F,Su I work W,R,F,Sa next week.. I'm crazy.
Well.. I think thats all I've got..
:D
Thursday, January 19, 2012
my teenage girl moment
Three years ago today, I began a new chapter in my life. A chapter that would include Billy Jones in it. Not just as a friendship, but a relationship that would grow to become my best friend. As I look back over the past three years I can't help but think about everything we have been though and how it has made us better. How much we have grown individually and how we have helped one another grow.
It's really.. well.. awesome. Not only awesome because what started as a high school relationship has grown into something much bigger, but it's awesome to be dating my best friend. I wouldn't trade any moment from the last 3 years for anything! Not a single argument, any situation or any circumstance. The past 3 years have been one of the biggest blessings in my life. He has helped me in more ways than he knows, from the dance recitals and other "boyfriend duties" to finals weeks, just being there when I need a hug and inviting "the girlfriend" to recording sessions.
Shoutout to everyone who has helped us become the people we are and the courage to stay strong in a world of temptation. Every day is a battle in an environment full of sex and partying but daily I am reminded of a loving God who has better plans for us. Thanks for every prayer ever lifted up, for either of us.
So.. As I conclude my teenage girl moment, here's to the last 3 wonderful, amazing, awesome, great, crazy, ridiculous, intense, busy years and every memory, story, joke, and moment in between January 19th 2009 and today, January 19th 2012, I hope we have many more together.
:)
It's really.. well.. awesome. Not only awesome because what started as a high school relationship has grown into something much bigger, but it's awesome to be dating my best friend. I wouldn't trade any moment from the last 3 years for anything! Not a single argument, any situation or any circumstance. The past 3 years have been one of the biggest blessings in my life. He has helped me in more ways than he knows, from the dance recitals and other "boyfriend duties" to finals weeks, just being there when I need a hug and inviting "the girlfriend" to recording sessions.
Shoutout to everyone who has helped us become the people we are and the courage to stay strong in a world of temptation. Every day is a battle in an environment full of sex and partying but daily I am reminded of a loving God who has better plans for us. Thanks for every prayer ever lifted up, for either of us.
So.. As I conclude my teenage girl moment, here's to the last 3 wonderful, amazing, awesome, great, crazy, ridiculous, intense, busy years and every memory, story, joke, and moment in between January 19th 2009 and today, January 19th 2012, I hope we have many more together.
:)
Thursday, January 12, 2012
well ello freind
yes, ello.
tis been a while. and that is my wrong doing. i am a very busy person you see. tis a new year now. break was refreshing & much needed.
I hope you read all of the above in a British accent. If you did not, I encourage you to go back and begin reading this again.
Spring 2012 will be a very busy semester. 19 credit hours making up 8 classes. I am looking forward to them while trying not to be bitter about not having any TCOM classes. I have already seen a lack of interest in myself in my classes. I want nothing more than to be in hands on classes and i have all book classes this semester. soon i will find out information about SAI pledging and that's exciting.
My trip to Tacoma just keeps getting closer and closer. It's really awesome to think that it's actually happening now, this is real. I look forward to what God has planned and what I will be doing in Tacoma with Network.
In transition, I recently submitted an application for CIY Summer MOVE Internship. I hope that everything was according to specifications. I am looking forward to the results of that, I will found on on the 30th if I recieved the internship or not. Either way I know God will be glorified though all of this and i have to look for Him in either situation.
Adjusting to campus food, new classes, a strange bed, and odd work hours has me pretty messed up. This semester will be jam packed and with that I am praying for health. It never fails that I get sick every year. I have classes that only allow 2 absences and I pray I needn't use any. Also, another goal I have is dean's list again... I've done it once, now I'm determined to do it again.
Prayer requests:
physical strength: I have aerobics class 2x a week and it will be taxing. I am determined to get fit but i pray that my body not get injured in the process and i become stronger
mental endurance: with 3 online classes, i am responsible for remembering when things are due, what is due and when in addition to 5 classes that meet.
womens chorus: yup.. me, Jess Cooney, am enrolled in a choir. I am determined in my ways that I will learn once and for all. I am going to do it. I will.
well... i'm not quite sure what else there is to say.. it's 2:45a and i'm exhausted.. half an hour until shift change and i get to sleep until 8:45a... it can't go fast enough.
With Love,
tis been a while. and that is my wrong doing. i am a very busy person you see. tis a new year now. break was refreshing & much needed.
I hope you read all of the above in a British accent. If you did not, I encourage you to go back and begin reading this again.
Spring 2012 will be a very busy semester. 19 credit hours making up 8 classes. I am looking forward to them while trying not to be bitter about not having any TCOM classes. I have already seen a lack of interest in myself in my classes. I want nothing more than to be in hands on classes and i have all book classes this semester. soon i will find out information about SAI pledging and that's exciting.
My trip to Tacoma just keeps getting closer and closer. It's really awesome to think that it's actually happening now, this is real. I look forward to what God has planned and what I will be doing in Tacoma with Network.
In transition, I recently submitted an application for CIY Summer MOVE Internship. I hope that everything was according to specifications. I am looking forward to the results of that, I will found on on the 30th if I recieved the internship or not. Either way I know God will be glorified though all of this and i have to look for Him in either situation.
Adjusting to campus food, new classes, a strange bed, and odd work hours has me pretty messed up. This semester will be jam packed and with that I am praying for health. It never fails that I get sick every year. I have classes that only allow 2 absences and I pray I needn't use any. Also, another goal I have is dean's list again... I've done it once, now I'm determined to do it again.
Prayer requests:
physical strength: I have aerobics class 2x a week and it will be taxing. I am determined to get fit but i pray that my body not get injured in the process and i become stronger
mental endurance: with 3 online classes, i am responsible for remembering when things are due, what is due and when in addition to 5 classes that meet.
womens chorus: yup.. me, Jess Cooney, am enrolled in a choir. I am determined in my ways that I will learn once and for all. I am going to do it. I will.
well... i'm not quite sure what else there is to say.. it's 2:45a and i'm exhausted.. half an hour until shift change and i get to sleep until 8:45a... it can't go fast enough.
With Love,
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