deafening sound of my own ear drum

yes. exactly what it sounds like.

i have been sitting in silence, no music just the noise of my fan circulating air through my room. my right ear drum is pounding. not like a 'hammer and i have an ear infection pounding' but more like it doesn't know how to take silence.

work is never quiet. it is a constant 70dB or more.. don't worry i wear ear plugs.. but most of my coworkers don't. i can't imagine how they stand it. i didn't have ear plugs for the first month.. really wishing i had..

anyway. as i strolled over to NoiseTrade, i just thought of that word.

deafening.

a sound so loud that can be so silent.
such quiet noise can be so loud.

your kingdom come, your will be done

Let Your will prevail above all else. Father, turn our hearts of stone into hearts of joy.

Several thoughts run through my head but this I know is true: God is good. Not just like "oh I got to Muncie safe" or "oh I didn't curse today" but If you surrender He can do more amazing things with your life than whatever you have planned. The best way to make God laugh, is to tell Him your plans.

Father, make the desires of our hearts the desires of your heart.

I have never had such a passion like this and I hope it continues to grow. Recently, I have felt a longing from my soul for a close friend. That they might run back to Jesus' never failing love.

Longing from the soul? It is something I cannot explain but my soul was broken for them. A spiritual pain I had never experienced before. A pain I pray I never have I feel again.

Trust God. His love is never failing, His comfort is never ending and no matter what you have done He is there to take you back. Even with all of your brokenness.

We don't have to go very far. All we have to do is turn around. Not even walk and we are already loved!

Finally, Father thank you for divine intervention.

I shall let the above speak for itself but when all your hope, trust, faith and identity is in Christ alone, no matter what material possessions you have or have not, you are richer than the richest Kings of Earth!

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Bless the Lord, O my soul!

indiana

Now, as you are well aware, I live in humble ol' Indiana.

We don't have beaches.
We don't have awesome weather.
We don't have mountains.
We don't have more than corn.

But what we do have is AMAZING sunrises and sunsets.

So awesome you should be jealous. When the sun is rising over the corn it is breathtaking.

Be jealous.

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fear.

this isn't easy

But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to 

everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this 

with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak 

maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.  

It is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil. 

1 Peter 3:15-17 (NIV84)

  

It has become aware that life isn't easy. Even for the believer. True, it can be easier and with the hope of Jesus and knowing the the Gospel is true no matter what happens, the days become more easily manageable even in the worst of situations. I guess this is me venting after a rough week.. 

I am here reminding myself that yes, the week was hard and the next week will be as well. Different challenges will rise and different situations will effect me. But can I tell you something? The Truth is still going to be true.  My God still has a plan. And I still trust in Him! Because no matter how hot the factory was or how sick I felt or how awful my spanish homework was, God is still God and He is always good. 

Never get too busy to find joy in Him. Now don't think I'm excluding me from this.. call me out in October, ask me how well I'm doing. But seriously.. take time daily to find joy in Him.  At 5:15 when that alarm goes off and I didn't fall asleep until midnight, I am not a happy person. But when I turn it off and roll over, I remember that He has given me another day on this Earth, to love for His plan, and to grow closer to Him. Since a wonderful sermon on Sunday which challenged us to find joy in the Lord every morning before we do anything else, I'm here to say 5:15 is pretty ugly unless you find your joy, passion, hope, and outlook for the day in the Lord. 

In the darkness of 5:15am, when there is no sunlight and I can still see the stars this is what I'm reminded of: 

Neither do people light a lamp and put it 

under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, 

and it gives light to everyone in the house.

Matthew 5:15 (NIV84)

There was a noticeable difference in my attitude.. in the mornings at least. And my outlook changed from "I have to go to work so early" to "I get to go to work so early" and god has been so gracious enough to paint me a wonderful sunrise every morning. 

Try it for a week.. besides, reading the bible too much isn't bad for ya.. 

It get's easier. 

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