finalsuck

that is all. 

this is pathetic..

wow.. sorry i fell off of the face of the earth. it kinda felt like i did.

From thanksgiving break to now has been one big whirl of events.. I'm not entirely sure what happened. A lot did. A few trips to the ER with Margaux.. lots of stress from projects.. continual sleep deprivation & robotic behaviors..

Its hard to believe there are 7 days until I am back in Danville for a month. I am excited yet terrifeied all at the same time. Finals are going to be crazy hard..

Wednesday - Audio final at 3:30
Thursday - ICOM at noon & Video at 4:30
Friday - MUHIS at noon

then I'm OUTTA HERE!

I do have some great news.. I emailed the director of the MMP (Music Media and Production) major and he said I seem dedicated and he wants to meet to talk about possibly getting into some of the MMP classes.. This whole TCOM thing is just frustrating.. I dont have a single major course next semester yet honors students get every course they want.. NOT FAIR.

I am really excited about the rest of my time here at BSU now. I won't need to take summer semesters and can stay and work..

CIY Internship new: Well.. I want to apply.. its just finding time to edit the dang interview video. I now remember why I chose audio, I do not enjoy being on screen talent nor do I enjoy editing myself on screen.

Ahh.. in this busy time of life I would love some prayers sent up to Muncie.. I know i will need them over the next week. It will be full of packing and studying.

Thanks!

And that what you've missed with Jess

TCOM still crazy. Brice's audio this weekend maybe.. My shoot Tuesday.
due dates: 11/21 CTT due, 11/28 audio to post, 12/5 Final Project DUE, Folley project? Finals...

ICOM PPI due Dec 1st... yeah... not much more than the pitch done..

MUHIS Tchaikovsky paper due 11/18

afboeriuhgqeoirulejNDXDUIQ4OGHQYHIsbfndboiquhergouhajlkjr!!!!!!

Ummm... discovery of the day: Awake tea, 3 C, 3R.. BOOM! Yum!

Yeah.. there's basically a lot going on and before I know it it wil be Thanksgiving Break.. then Christmas break.. then next semster.

BTW, I can't wait for add/drop to happen (Nov 14th) because I am really anxious about my classes next semester

And that's what I've been up too!

Life

So. To catch you up...

TCOM is crazy right now. We're finishing up our rotations and starting our final projects. After next Friday we stop meeting for class and this means I can sleep in!

ICOM I have an interactive project due Dec. 1st... it's going to be interesting. Piriting Process Initiative. I took the chance to use Pirate and ran with it!

Band- wellllllll... depending on the football game on Saturday we may become bowl eligible. But reguardless we have the Black Friday game to get ready for but Dr. V was nice enough to give us the week off.

MUHIS- oh well ya know.. still gettin As! But, were doing opera and I would rather not be there, but I'm a good little student and have perfect attendance.

And thats school!

Weekend!!! I'm going home with Margaux and we're going to do all of the touristy things to do back home. I'm excited to take a weekend away from Muncie.

This week has flown by and it's been glorious. Course request was due Nov. 1st and I am really eager to see if I get all of them.. I don't want to wait for add/drop, I want to know now!

This week I realized how much of a commitment marching band is.. When the week is over I have had 10 extra hours on my hands and honestly I didn't know what to do with it. I have found a new appreciation for Netflix though.. :D

Well.. thats all I've got for now, unless you want me to rant and rave more about Seattle.. because I'm only 'a little bit' excited. teheheh!

<3

b. u. s. y.

thats what I am.. I promise I have not fallen off of the face of the earth.

since we returned from fall break all of the profesors are like "AHHHHHHH We have so much to learn!" which is not cool. so i have been doing homework and more homework and more homework. along with band and work. I have found a few days to chill and just have some me time.

Seattle update: tickets have been ordered! so exciting. as I continue to work things out with Network I ask that you begin (if you have not already) praying for my trip. Some of my requests are:
-this is my first solo trip
-flights to & from go smoothly (literally.. I will fly over the Rockies.. turbulence was awful last time)
-Network & all the people they serve
-how i can serve Network best
-that my time will be used to its best potential
-most importantly that God is glorified through all of this

Thanks!

<3

rain and pain but glory to God

Yesterday was a cold and rainy day that reminded me of being in Ireland. With the cold and rain I knew today would be a very sore day. From ankles cracking as I walk to struggling to open a bottle of water yesterday was a rough day, but it truly is okay because God is still God and He plans the weather to His liking.

As the weekend quickly approaches, I am beginning to realize this period before Thanksgiving is crunch time. There should be a name for the time between fall break and Thanksgiving break.. a name that adequately describes the stress level of college students.

S E A T T L E !!!!!
I'm only a little bit excited.. I got my tickets and things really seem to be working out. God totally has His hands all over this and I look forward to doing whatever Network needs me to do and whatever God puts on their workload that I can do. Details are still being hashed out right now but I am so excited and sooooooo looking forward to SB 2012!!!

There hasnt been much going on lately.. other than a lot. haha. There is just a lot of school work that never seems to end and like I said before from now until Thanksgiving I should just lock myself in a room and pound out this work..

<3

ohhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhh

So, It's Thursday, and tomorrow is Friday.. which really means only a day and a half until I am home!

Thursday class from 2-5 dinner and a project
Friday class from 1-5 dinner then LEAVE!!!!

This fall break is something I have been much needing for about 3 weeks. It was great to see my family a few weeks ago but I am just ready to leave Muncie.

checkout.
gone.
be done.
pause.

Mentally, I have been needing a break from school. Physically, I have been needing rest.

FALL BREAK IS ALMOST HERE!!!!!!

I'm only a tad bit excited though. Life has been pretty good other than that.. More bloggin will come this weekend I promise.

Till then.. <3

A Legend 1955-2011

I just finished a blog for my ICOM class. On this page there is the blog post in tribute of Steve Jobs but also there are two images on the left side to click on, Steve Jobs out of "Apples" and Steve Jobs Tribute. I suppose you could say this is me paying my respect to a man who truly has changed the way we think about technology, the future and life.

http://jesscooneyicom.blogspot.com/

Thanks.

what is sleep?

This post is more out of necessity to stay awake.. so disregard if you will.

A weekend in the life of a college kid..

Friday 5:30p  dinner
7p see Billy Jones
9:30p venture to Walmart for tuna & over Starbucks
11:50p work
4a off work, in bed
10:15a wake up
I missed breakfast, but went to Starbucks for "lunch"
Flea Market - 3 cassettes: Spice Girls, Billy Joel, Phil Collins - i guess i was feeling nostalgic
Barn sale - 3 records : BSU 2nd annual Singers Spectacular (circa 1967), Bill Cosby comedy, other
         OH! And Margaux found a Furby.
Muncie Mall - rue21 2 dresses, Auntie Ann's pretzel
dorm
Studio 1 - pressed buttons, fun was had
dorm
Studio 2 - watched guys lay vocal tracks, took 331 final... 2+ hr = C
Scotty's - apparently after the day i've had, I don't know how to order food
dorm - find Margaux, Bob-o and Kayte watch tv... resulting staying up until 12:45. Bob-o revived the Furby we thought was broken..
1a - 3:30a sleep
3:35a - wake up for work
Now.  sitting at my desk.. swiping a few cards here and there..
8a off work, lay in bed, contemplate nap
9:30a head to Starbucks for Sunday breakfast
10:15a leave for church
10:30a church
11:45a lunch
1p lynda.com session
2p family arrives
5p dinner somewhere in Muncie
7p shoot CIY application video
SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7a :: "7am the usual morning wake up" alarm goes off... and  better be ready to do it all again next week.. oh, and next week is Homecoming, grreeeeeeeeeeaaaat.

well, its crazy what your time looks like if you lay it out like this.. how does your day look? hmmm...

well clearly i can't think of anything else except how i have 2 hours left and don't know how I will get through them..

I Surrender All

This is my song of the week. I just keep finding the chorus running through my mind. It's brilliant. Once again, similar to Death In His Grave by JMM, this song just lays out worship to Him.

"All to Jesus I surrender..."

Everyday. Wake up and that is the first thing that should come from our mouths. We must surrender ourselves to Him daily.

I just encourage you this week/weekend to think about this song and wherever you are, surrender it all.

Death in His Grave

Though the Earth Cried out for blood
Satisfied her hunger was
Her billows calmed on raging seas
for the souls on men she craved

Sun and moon from balcony
Turned their head in disbelief
Their precious Love would taste the sting
disfigured and disdained

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke with keys
Of Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

So three days in darkness slept
The Morning Sun of righteousness
But rose to shame the throes of death
And over turn his rule

Now daughters and the sons of men
Would pay not their dues again
The debt of blood they owed was rent
When the day rolled a new

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke holding keys
To Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

He has cheated
Hell and seated
Us above the fall
In desperate places
He paid our wages
One time once and for all

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke with keys
Of Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

Take a minute, really go back and think about the words.  What comes to mind? For me it is deffintely how much we just forget what Jesus has done for us. Yeah we get that he rose from the grave and was the last sacrifice. But do we really get it? 

He has won. 

He has succeded. 

He has reign. 

He has overcome. 

He has loved. 

            loved enough to die. 

Today, I am thankful for that Jesus. This song is just such a beautiful reminder that He never had to do anything for us. He didn't have to die, He didn't even have to wait 3 days. All in all, He could have done things so differently but He chose to do them this way. 

Lord, thank you for all that you do, have done and will do for us. We come to you humble and willing to listen. Open our minds & ears to hear your will and plan. Let us seek not the kingdom of earth but rather your Kingdom, Father. The Kingdom you built from love and beauty. Allow us to live in this life in a way that always pleases you. Protect our endeavors and provide for our needs. Lord, following you is so worth it. If it takes my life to proclaim the Truth it is yours.

<3

chirp chirp!

With :28 left on the clock, on our 4th down, score at Buffalo: 25 BSU: 21, silence over comes Scheuman Stadium...

the ball is hiked...

thrown...

caught!

(insert incessant screaming at excessive decibels)

That was the 1st down the Cardinals would need to win the game. i'm not sure i've ever been happier for a first down.

Ahhhhhh! it was such a good game. Everything about it was great. Just a tad colder than "perfect weather" because we didnt have our warm ups yet but still.. a GREAT NIGHT!

Final Score: BSU 28 - Buffalo 25


to that i say, chirp chirp i'm a Cardinal!

carmel macchiatto and i'm good to go?

well thats what i thought.. picked up my coffee beverage at 8:45.. and it didn't do much. its 12:30am and i'm honestly worried that i won't make it through my shift.. we'll see..

today was a mostly fabulous day. i mean that in an ironically unserious yet kinda almost truly serious way. more or less, fabulous played both sides of the fence today.

home opener tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly i am excited for this.. :) even though it will be cold it will be fun. at the same time, i work now - 4am, call time is 2:45pm at the stadium. game ends at 10ish. i work again at 3:45am (sunday morning)...

can't wait for monday night.. bed time on monday then sleeeping till noon on tuesday. AWESOME.

soooo... not really much has gone on.. and i'm gonna go now.

:)

$

What exactly is money? Why does it matter so much? Why does it take so much to have "nice" things? These were the questions I found myself coming back to today. Honestly, I am a little angry at society. All money is so social currency. Technically, we determine how much a dollar is worth... why did we make everythign so expensive.

As I was walking through campus thinking about the amount of money we spend on things I couldn't help but realize the amount of just what I had in my hands. It was suprisingly more expensive than I thought..
      iPod classic
      Flip camera
      iPhone 4
Now, maybe I'm over reacting but if technology is really cheap (relatively) these products should not have totaled over the $1,000 in retail value that they did. The mark up is ridiculous. Really, the only reason an i(anything) is so expensive is because we pay for the name and the assurance that comes behind it.

Later as I was thinking about college, you know $19,500 (give or take a few hundred) is absurd! Pure mark up! Here's the thing, I love that I have the opportunity to go to school and futher my education and life. I really do value that and am thankful for that. But come on!!!! $19,500! a year! not total, a year!

(insert anger)

There comes a point where you wonder why or if it even matters anymore. Who really cares how much money you have or how much student loans you are swimming in. We live in a debt driven catch 22. You can't have a life with out a college degree, but in order to get that college degree you either have to have a really "good life" (lots of money) or take out all the student loans you need at obscene interest rates that you will be paying off for a significant chunk of your life. Then moving into the job market, often times, you can't get the job without the experience, you can't get the experience without the job tho.

So what matters really? I am completely fine sitting here at Ball State University knowing that I might not get my first job, or my second job as my dream job. I am fine knowing that I might not have a steady income because of the field I am learning and loving. I am completely content in all of these things because no matter what at the end of the day, my God still loves me. Rich or poor, He will love me no matter what! No matter where I am, He will love me. No matter the value of a dollar, He will love me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter what happens, everything will be alright because I trust in Jesus. I have been promised something better & incomparable. I will say there is nothing better than waking up every day knowing no matter what happens I still have God.

<3

yup, still here

oh hey...

i promise i haven't fallen off the face of the Earth.it may seem like it.. but i haven't

whats new?
     homework
     church
     projects
     color guard
     Lucas Oil was pretty awesome. just sayin.
     the boy <3
     excited for The X Kickoff on Sunday!
     Seattle planning 
     yeah.. thats pretty much it.

Venting:
      who makes an aesthetics course go theough a whole book in 5 weeks?
      working my night shift is pointless, they pay me to do homework & blog..
      getting sick, really. i will go to the doc and he will tell me to wait it out then give me a zpac..
     
School:
      i have a recording session tomorrow to do my 1st radio commercial. record my own voice, find music, mix it. i'm kinda excited. i've got an epic video to put together for kickoff. haven't had color guard since Saturday (practice was canceled yesterday due to rain). slowly but surely figuring out ProTools.. converged projects will be started next week.. uummmm...


* NEW MUSIC COMING SOON *
               Coldplay, City Harmonic, NEEDTOBREATHE, Classic Crime?
    Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

I apply for my CIY interniship within the next two weeks! It starts May 21st - August 10th. The craziest part of this is that its a paid internship. Those are very hard to find and get. I'll find out in January if I got it or not. The theme is brilliant for next year and I'm excited to be praying for & about CIY.

God has so much in His plans and I'm really excited to be living out His agenda. I know if I don't get the internship He wanted it that way and I'll do something else, crazy awesome next summer.  I'm super excited to run home this weekend and do sound for The X Kickoff. I love that I can still help out with The X.

Prayer Requests:
      my cold to go away or not start, let it not be tonsillitis or any other -itis
      The X - kickoff is this week, go smoothly, but for the entire school year to go well
      oh. I have a music history test on Monday.. i'm kinda terrified.
      safe travels home
      find time to spend with Billy where homework is not involved for once..
      Seattle
     
I'm currently planning things out with Greg for my spring break back to Seattle. Please pray that, even with the time change, we find the time to talk and plan out my week in Tacoma. Also, please begin to pray for safe travels, Network & what they need right now, as well as what I will do there to help them.  Some of the things Greg & I need to talk about are lodging/food & how I can help them. A big thing to consider praying about, is that since I am going there on mission, I will be collecting funds for them. 100% of what I collect goes straight to Network (I will double check but I do believe it is tax deductible) because my plane ticket is my Christmas gift from my parents. This will be my 1st trip alone as well, but I am excited for the adventure and wonderful experiences I know God has planned.

I think thats it for now.. I'll try to blog again before next Thursday.

oh heyyyyy

right now i cannot organize my thoughts properly, i had about 20 lines or jibberjabber and cheerleader speak so i decided to save you from it.
check back soon.

:)

church is more than..

church. 


church should be something more than a building or a gathering. it should be a place you feel at home, a place you can't wait to go back to, a place where people know you and look forward to seeing you...

with that definition of a church, i struggle. i know, i so desperately need a Muncie church. nothing will replace Northview, my friends or family there but i can't sit in the present and wish for the past, or even for time travel..

question: why do church websites not declare the demonination?
frustration: i don't want to waste my morning somewhere i could have known i would not like.

is it wrong of me, to want a church where Jesus loves me in my tshirt? a place where i can worship and study AND find a new community? get involved and not just be a church goer? i dont think so, but finding that balance will be a hard thing to figure out.

i think i have decided, over the next month, that's 5 sundays, i will be trying out various churches in Muncie, to see where God wants me. the only thing i ask, is that you partner with me in prayer. finding a church home in the place I spend 8 months of the year is no joke.

this is both a blessing and a curse. as much as i love Northview, i cannot not go to church here. a key element of church is community and i cannot have community in my dorm room alone.. im so blessed in knowing that i need this rather than settling for "online" church.. i.. i just want to feel welcomed and surrounded by people who truly love Jesus who can help me love more.

:) have a terrific day

week one.

wow, this week has come and gone and also blended with band camp. honestly, i don't think i will know what day it is until well.. tuesday? i'm not really sure.

adventures of the week:
monday
     first day of classes
     3rd night of consecutive work

tuesday
     slept till noon..

wednesday
     realized how hard my semster will be
     realized that i may actually never have a job, just freelancing.. how comforting.
     threw my MuHis book across my room but made sure it landed flat. 

thursday
     mocktails & homework (what will become a weekly tradition)
     slept until noon.

friday
     roomie breakfast
     blew up on the practice field
     work till 4a


a few comments from the week:
    oh the innocence of freshman, willing to talk to anyone about anything..
    i think i need a tutor in MuHis.. thats lame.
    lipton raspberry iced tea = new fav. bottled tea
    i have in fact discovered how to nap and not wake up grumpy its GLORIOUS

wanna pray for me?
    in leading my roomies in a book/bible study, what book, what book of bible?
    with major related courses, 52% of my schedule, 12 of class a week and 40+ expected outside of class
    MuHis.. of geezzz....  yeah..
    1st sunday back at MAC, getting more involved?
    week 2 to go as well as this week, figure out homework schedule - spending more time in Club Bracken
    Ichthus Music Festival - financial issues, may not have another event. =(
    Ball State University - God to be alive and present on this campus, true gospel shared and spoken.

things ive learned this week
     no where on campus has good drinking water this year
     Muncie is hotter than I remember in August
     this semester is gonna be crazy..
     Watching LA Ink makes me want a tattoo
   
Our God is sooooooooooooooooooooo good. His words are true, always. Sovereign, loving, forgiving, always with arms wide open. We are not alone, He is here with us.

early to bed, early to rise then back to sleep

staying up late/waking up early for work really sucks. it's a job and it will give me what i need, but geeeezzzzz... I am not discovering there really are times between 2am and 6am. since I'm on the topic of my job, honestly, why do I have my job. I sit here and make sure people live in this building.. thier cards can do that for them anyway. the cards are coded only to let you enter into your hall.. my job is sometimes irrelevant.


tcom.
oh gosh.. 9 cr hrs of my semster are major related.. and now im second if i really want audio or if i want video..

icom
well.. it seems to be an interesting class, not quite what i signed up for but i am looking forward to it

muhis
the book has been thrown twice. i wonder what the count will be by december. also, it was suggested that i get a tutor, i really just dont get it..

color guard/ band
sunburn.

i am busy, yes. but also, i have 5 hours every night that is waiting to be filled.. i wonder what kind of adventures I will go on this year..


a few things to keep in prayer please,
finishing my 28 hours work week
reading & comprehending MuHis and my Aesthetics course material
lower back pain, hasnt really gotten better since band camp, looking forward to the weekend to relax
homework, i have not missed it.

thanks :)

the day that shall not be named

yes.. i would rather not speak of it but i will outline it for you.. and thank you for letting me vent. :)


7am wake up

7:20 leave

7:30 bfast

7:45 in 1st class

8am-noon in same room for class, yes.. the same room.. with 70 other people in uncomfortable chairs.. for 4 hours. also, this is where i found out i needed an aditional $200-$400 worth of material by next monday... gotta love college

12:30 lunch

1pm MuHis 100

2pm chill in room for 40 mintues

2:50pm leave for band

3pm - 5pm band

5pm dinner

7pm laundry

11:50 work

now...


all of that was running off of 3 and 1/2 hours of sleep, a cup of Namberrie, a venti black tea 1/2 classic 1/2 raspberry and currently enjoying a livewire mt dew

in 30 mintues I get off and will, i repeat WILL be sleeping until noon.. 
my first class is at 2pm and that will be plenty of time.

much has been accomplished tonight at work, such as finding the $200-$400 worth of materials like gaff tape, gloves, hard drives and adapters for class that i need. my downfall? i didn't have my wallet with me.. so i cannot order them until tomorrow.

once again, thank you for allowing me to vent and not explode upon anyone.

thank you for caring enough to keep up with me. :) you're awesome... really.

<3

year two. in less than 8 hours I will be sitting in my first class of my sophomore year. I start my major and minor this semester. And before classes have even begun I have been assigned 5 chapters to read before 8/31.. oh geez..

there are several things on my mind tonight.. not quite a racing mind but rather floating thoughts gently passing through..

after reflecting on the week of band camp, i have several thoughts.
       wow do i feel like im getting old
       i no longer match any of my make up.. i am at least 5 shades darker
       it is totally worth it to spend 18 hours a day for 7 days in a row for a 5 minute show.. totally.
       good friendships will be made and there is good craic to be had.
       i will NOT miss LaFollette Buffet
       some people just can't do color guard
       sometimes i care too much..

band camp was great times.. i could live without the pain or uneven tan but thats all part of it isnt it? im not sure band camp would be the same without it..

as i write out my schedule for the next week it looks monotonous and like i will be a zombie.. i take refuge in knowing that the last week of august not only do i get to sleep in on saturday and sunday, i only work wednesday of that week and my 28 hours will be completed by then.

some of the best things i am enjoying of my job are talking to the people.. drunk or sober, as well as having time to mentally chill.

to do for the week & things you can pray for:
        reading for 331
        playlist for work - that just one song may stick with someone and make a difference
        rest
        aching body to stop aching
        classes start, not to be overwhelmed
        working the rest of my shifts.. mon 11:50-3:20, wed 3:20-7, fri & sat 11:50-3:50
        church home - where is right in Muncie for me?

thank you so much, you are awesome

in the words of the Golden Girls, thank you for being a friend.

<3

       

codes, coffee, and swiping

yup.. i get to swipe.

here's a few things that come to mind when i think of my job...
         Swiper no swiping!
         All I do is swipe swipe swipe no matter what!
         singing along to WLBC
         sacrificing precious hours of sleep
         accomplishing great tasks

but really, with 28 extra hours on my hands (hours that should be spent sleeping) I will be blogging, organizing binders for class, doing homework, reading, outlining syllabi, on Facebook, drinking tea or coffee and various other tasks.

tonight is night one.

weekdays shifts are 11:50p-3:20a or 3:20a-7a
weekends shifts are 11:50p-3:50a or 3:50a to 8a

there will be more to follow... stay posted.
<3

of LaFollette

I hope your days is well.. here are just a few wonderful reasons why I am so thankful I no longer live in LaFollette:

-the 1-6 elevators were not working
-the service elevator got stuck
-no AC
-8th floor for band camp
- oh the restrooms.. hahahah!
- cinderblock walls

yup... and that's just been since 11:30!

Band camp will be interesting..

8.10.08

no friends, the date in the title is not a mistake.. its a glorious day that i will never ever ever forget. one of the most important days of my life.

the day that i accepted Jesus Christ into my life, into my heart and placed all my trust in Him.

looking back on how far ive come and where i am now, i realize, i would not be here if it wasn't for the people in my life that i have and all of the experiences i have gone through. three years ago today, i made the best decision of my life. i am fully confident in this. and because of that decision, i am eternally loved, forgiven, blessed and part of a family greater than any other family in the world, the family of Christ. 

as i sit here (in starbucks) i look back and wonder, sit in awestruck wonder in how He had written everything i have gone through. it was His plan for me to not know and then discover Him 16 years later. before my life even began, He knew! I can trust that my entire life is planned for me even in the most difficult times.

today, i am thankful for the Trinity. i am reminded that i am never alone. ever. the Holy Spirit lives in me. i am not afraid to declare that to anyone. i have a Father who will love me no matter what I have done or may do, a Savior who not only gave His life for me but defeated death and that same power that defeated death dwells in me.

Glory to God and trust Him in everything. 

 He is all you will ever need.

challenges

today, i was challenged to be intentional. intentional in everything i do, to the littlest detail. well.. challenge accepted. i was also challenged to update said blog on the detail of this challenge.. again, challenge accepted.

CHALLENGE:
        - be intentional
        - start small group/bible study at BSU
        - pray for 3 people until winter break
        - meet weekly and discuss week
        - go through "You Can Change"

i am greatly looking forward to this.. i am thankful for the people who gave me this idea and also excited about how this challenge will blossom.

keep looking back for updates from me at Ball State, marching band endeavors, stories of fun times as well as things i'll be going through, like rediculous projects that eat part of my soul and prayer request i may have.

thank you to everyone.. for being there. for being awesome. and helping me be who i am.  if i can ask one thing of you, it is to keep me accountable to my faith as well as this challenge.

what day is it anymore?

it is wednesday, august 3rd to be exact. if you are wondering i am no more confused on what day it is than normally but i have been going like a.. a.. well.. i dont know what. on saturday my family had a memorial service for my great grandmother in chicago. the service was lovely and from friday to sunday i had italian beef at least once a day. monday, Billy and I took the train up to chicago (this was planned long before the memorial service). our day started at 4am and ended at 2am but it was so much fun and i think it was something the both of us honestly needed as a goodbye to summer.

now, it is 9 days until i make the 2 hour trek to muncie, in for another band camp, another semester and hopefully great memories. where has the summer gone? where? here's where i think mine went:

May - work
June - Northern Ireland
           Ichthus
           work
July -  work
           Chicago (x2) 
August - work

wow.. I guess I spent a lot of time at work.. but really what doesn't show are the memories I made this summer with my church family, Margaux Glenn, old friends and making new ones. the hours i spent at church passing time or helping out. in ladoga or on the road. or even the time i spent at starbucks.

Thinking about summer coming to end is bittersweet, because now i must get back to school work as well as color guard, adventures to walmart with the roommates, and who knows what else will happen. As summer ends and school begins I will try to regularly post to keep everyone updated on life.

love!

late night buzz

After having wonderful conversations at Starbucks, now I sit in my room, confident that the Lord will lead me to where I need to be. The assurance is coming from somewhere new, someplace I've never felt it before. A comfort so great, that my greatest fears are even at bay.  He is my hope, my strength, my everything.  Tonight, I sit in silence - which is very abnormal. The back and fourth motion of a fan and the typing on my fingers on the keyboard is all I hear, and I am content with this.

"I may be weak, but your spirits strong in me, my flesh may fail, my God you never will"

what a powerful statement. that pretty much sums of my life right now.. I'm trying to learn more and more everyday but I'm still weak but the Spirit is strong and alive.  I will sin and sin and sin.. I'm human.. that's what we do.. but our God is so greatly above sin. His holiness covers my sin and His grace and forgiveness accepts me no matter how much I mess up.

So thankful for a sovierign God.