5 years from now...

In 5 years, where do I see myself? 
This is a question all too familiar for college students. Honestly, I don't know. I don't think I'll be able to answer that question until I graduate, and even then, that may not be where I am in 5 years.

Where do I want to be in 5 years?
Now that is a much easier question. I have several hopes, aspirations, and dreams for myself in 5 years but the most important is praising God daily. Ideally, I would love to work for a Christian label, studio, or company in either Seattle, Nashville, or Maryland. Little steps though. There will be jobs I don't like, there will be people who aren't my favorite, but God has put them in my life for a reason. And I hope during the next 5 years I will be able to take every opportunity to share His name.

My determination to pursue the music industry is something that I wholeheartedly believe is a God given passion. There have been so many people trying to stand in my way, so many road blocks have come up but the passion is not dying, it's simply growing stronger. The people who have heard me mix, know my talent. Professors and staff here at BSU though, don't know my talent and it's become a real challenge to prove this. Currently I am struggling with the system to try to get the most out of my education here and modify my degree toward a music production rather than TV/Film production. This has become a lot of back and fourth and waiting. As Course Request is soon approaching, I have yet to finalize anything.

Before mid-March (when Course Request opens), if you could partner with me in praying for this to work out I would greatly appreciate this. I am willing to jump through all of the hoops, I am willing to do what ever I can do to make this work. If I didn't think this could happen I wouldn't believe in it so strongly, but it's just a matter of the right people saying yes. My specific prayer request is this:
- that God may shine in any circumstance involving this situation
- I may be able to handle the decision of "the right people"
- I ultimately will be able to pursue this passion in any way I can

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well then..

So here's some of the timeline of events recently.

- sick all last week

- 2/13/12
Daddy was in a car accident. Jeep, The Green Machine, was totaled but luckily my daddy is fine. He is taking a week off, may need more time thought to heal. He is just very stiff.. but so thankful that he is okay! Thanks for all of the prayers on Monday.. and keep em coming for a quick recovery and the bills to be taken care of in an orderly fashion..

-Valentines Day
Wow.. not even to be cliche and cheesy but I have an amazing man.. There were so many great conversations we had yesterday and I can't wait to see what else God has in store for our lives.

-2/15/12
Well, we all know that the candy is on sale. But more importantly I had a huge test in Spanish today that I actually think I didn't fail. That's exciting.

Upcoming Future

-work
after having to take off both of my shifts last week, i have to work W/R/F/S.. if that doesn't make sense basically, I have to work everyday the rest of the week, including 3:50am on Sunday morning.  This really wouldn't be a big deal if I were recovered from this cold but I just can't seem to kick it.

-SEATTLE!
AHHHHHHHHHHH! It's so close. It's exciting. 16 days until I head over to the West Coast! I'm excited to go back to Seattle but also really excited to serve Network. I should probably chill out before I explode or something..

Ummm.. ya know. 19 credit hours. I hate this.. its dumb. I never want to take 19 credit hours again. It's a lot of work..

-finding a job
apparently no one is hiring right now in Muncie but come April (when people put in thier notices) they will be. It's just very frustrating right now because I need to secure a job before school gets over, so that I can stay in Muncie for the summer.

Prayer requests:
- dad's recovery
- my health (getting over this cold) I would love for it to be gone by Spring Break
- rest (working my shifts this week/weekend will be rough)

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300 kleenex later...

Yes...

As I work on my 3rd box of Kleenex, 1/2 a box of Mucinex D and 5 days later, I have had ups and downs all week. Through canceling classes, minor panic attacks to finish school work, meetings on G+ and Facebook and constant email communication is what the last 5 days looked like.

It was crazy.

But, I am feeling better. Not 100%... but better.

Ahhhh, Seattle is 3 weeks away.. crazy. Crazy.

Prayers: 
     nerves for flying alone to be calmed
     health
     nerves for Mom & Dad (this is the first time their Baby Girl is going off alone)
     God to let me "see/hear" his plans

Also, I missed several classes last week and it would be awesome if I wasn't way behind.

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a whole box of kleenex later..

well.. the bug has hit. since about Sunday I have been feeling awful. Since Monday I have successfully gone through an entire boy of Puff's plus, my nose is still painfully red (despite the plus lotion), and I now sound like a boy going through puberty when my voice actually decided to work.

On top of being sick, I have had to cancel both of my shifts for work this week, have a major project due Friday, and have had to skip Aerobics and women's chorus. I never skip class.. so its killing me to have to sit at home and not be in class.

The plus side to being sick, is having a lot of time on my hands. I have a huge project due Friday and now I have the rest of the evening and tomorrow after noon to do it. Among the stress of being sick this project is a bit much and other things are being demanded of my time as well.

I would really appreciate a few prayers thrown up.
-health to return soon, if not healthy soon just my voice back
-God transforming my heart to prepare me for Seattle
-finding a job in Muncie for this summer, I was notified that 2 of the jobs I applied for I did not receive
-healthy for Margaux that she will not catch what I have

Thanks
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God is still God

As many of you know, I applied for a CIY MOVE Summer Internship.

This morning, like every morning after my alarm goes off, I checked my email. This not only gives me a few more minutes under the covers but gets my brain going before my body. Well.. a much awaited email from CIY was waiting in my inbox.

After reading the email in its entirity, I soon realized this summer was goign to be awesome. Because God is still God. No matter what.

Confused? Well, I did not get the internship but I was ready for that. As the month of January progressed my heart began to realize that maybe I would be in Muncie this summer. As we found a house, signed a May lease, discovered the Ichthus lineup and began to hunt for a job, I almost wanted to stay in Muncie as much as I wanted to get the CIY internship.

God has His plan, I'm just navigating through it. I know this is part of it. Maybe I'm supposed to go to Ichthus and hear a really awesome sermon, or have a crazy awesome God moment. Maybe I'll get a really awesome job where I get to share God with someone everyday. Maybe, just maybe.. (wink wink) He has something really great in store for me this summer, and CIY just wasn't part of that plan.

It's silly to fight God. I'm not angry that I didn't get the internship. Not one bit, because I know God can do awesome things in Muncie with me just as much as He can traveling with CIY.

When some might look at God and ask "Why not?" I'm looking at Him asking "What's next?"

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