While some of my friends are going through challenges right now I just want to let you know that you are a loved child of our God and that you are being prayed for.
<3
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Monday, July 15, 2013
Thankful
I just want to take a moment and say that I am so incredibly thankful for the place in my life that God has me in.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
What next?
Be Thou my Vision, oh Lord of my heart.
There is something to be said about sitting down and going back to the hymns. As many of you know, we don't sing traditional hymns on a regular basis at either of the churches Billy and I attend (Northview Christian Church in Danville or Commonway in Muncie). But lately when I have heard even the simplest of hymns, be it on my iPod, the radio or Pandora, something inside me just wants to stop and wholeheartedly worship God.
I don't really know where I'm supposed to be or what I'm supposed to be doing or even why I can't seem to find a job but it is my continued prayer that God will reveal His plan for my life. It's really easy to look back and see where you came from and why you went through what you did but it's super hard to look at your current circumstances and know where to go. I just trust that when it comes to making decisions soon (around December) that I will have a better grasp on what and how to proceed.
In the meantime, I just keep playing these verses on repeat..
There is something to be said about sitting down and going back to the hymns. As many of you know, we don't sing traditional hymns on a regular basis at either of the churches Billy and I attend (Northview Christian Church in Danville or Commonway in Muncie). But lately when I have heard even the simplest of hymns, be it on my iPod, the radio or Pandora, something inside me just wants to stop and wholeheartedly worship God.
I don't really know where I'm supposed to be or what I'm supposed to be doing or even why I can't seem to find a job but it is my continued prayer that God will reveal His plan for my life. It's really easy to look back and see where you came from and why you went through what you did but it's super hard to look at your current circumstances and know where to go. I just trust that when it comes to making decisions soon (around December) that I will have a better grasp on what and how to proceed.
In the meantime, I just keep playing these verses on repeat..
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
<3
Saturday, July 6, 2013
like dust in the Wind
I don't know my mission, I don't know my future, I just know I'm just floating through.
Not floating like "la-ti-da" but floating like I'm just waiting to see where the Wind takes me. I am anxious and nervous but ready to start my exciting journey.
Here's to the future.
<3
Not floating like "la-ti-da" but floating like I'm just waiting to see where the Wind takes me. I am anxious and nervous but ready to start my exciting journey.
Here's to the future.
<3
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Encouraged
There is not one specific thing I can point to in my life right now but I am incredibly encouraged that my path will only increase in joy as my life progresses. That being said, I want to try to explain this joy I feel.
- like your favorite song on the radio right when you need it
- like the best, longest hug from your favorite person
- like a free item at your favorite establishment
- laughing with (or at) your best friend
- knowing that the path you are on will be for your best interest no matter how many storms you face
- like your favorite weather all the time
- like your favorite outfit all the time
These are a few things that normally make me smile. Now combine all of those things and imagine the joy and happiness one might experience with that combination.
I think for the first time in my life I have been able to experience true joy as God intended for it to be experienced. Man. This is one amazing feeling. I hope it never goes away.
<3
Monday, July 1, 2013
The Glory of Our God
Indescribable.
Five years ago this time, I went to my first ever CIY MOVE. In the most cliché description possible: it changed my life. But literally after that week in Holland, MI my life was never the same because after that point I could no longer live as a child of the world but rather I was on the path to knowing I was a child of God.
After that week, I came back with questions and a passion for the life changing God that I had never experienced before. Before that week of my life, I had wondered what the purpose of life was, if there was more than school and drama, and where there was for me. As a 16 year old emotional hormonal teenager in little ol' Danville, IN I wanted more. I wanted more than what the world promised, and i felt that longing.
August 10, 2008 I consider my rebirthday. That day marks my "official" acceptance of God into my life and that day is a day I would never change of my life. For me, it marks the best day of my life. Better than that time we went to state finals in winterguard, better than the day(s) i got my black belt(s), better than the day i got my Ball State acceptance letter. All of those things fade away amidst the riches of Heaven.
Fast forward almost five years and the greatness of our God, the God I happily excitedly graciously devoted my life to has blessed me in more ways than I deserve and I know He will continue to bless me. I just want to take a moment to list some of them:
- A almost 4.5 year relationship with a man who has become my best friend. Though we have rough times I never doubted God and He never stopped providing. His provision has never been more apparent to me than it is today as I am able to see what we have gone through and where we are now. I am only encouraged to proceed and see where He takes us.
- Incredible mission opportunities in both Seattle and Northern Ireland. Each one of these trips have been full of learning about God and who he is and how to trust Him. I can go on and on about these trips but I think I will just summarize and say I'd be totally fine if he put me in either one of these areas for an extended period of time. ;)
- Countless gospel friendships to encourage me along the way. I could sit here an list names but then I'd leave people out and you'd all start fighting and it would get ugly.. so that being said: you're all important and valued to me.
Though the future is uncertain to me [and i find this terrifying] and i prepare as best i can for what after college will have in store I have something important to admit. In the coming months people will be asking me where I see myself and what do I want to do with my future. Here is my response to that: I don't live for myself, I live for God and his Kingdom. I am going to do whatever He asks me to do - wherever He asks me to do it. So no, I no longer plan on moving to Nashville or Chicago right after graduation. And I'm perfectly terrifyingly okay with not knowing what or rather where I am going to be next May. It's not that i'm ignorant or dumb and don't want to apply myself, its that I wish to apply myself for a different purpose than "the american dream".
The coming months are going to be super exciting and I can't even begin to explain how rewarding my last year of school is going to be only taking 12 and 6 credits each semester respectively before I graduate but I am praying that I am able to learn a lot about myself and where God wants me after school. I am so excited to be in a place now where I am able to truly enjoy the blessings I have been given instead of ignore them as I have previously. And I pray that I am able to see these blessings and enjoy in the future as well.
Basically, Glory to God because He is indescribable and I am filled with his Spirit and joy every day.
Let all things we do Father be to your glory and the advancement of your Kingdom. Help us be a light in the darkness and let us see You in everything - even the bad things. It's in your gracious name I ask this Father - Amen.
<3
Five years ago this time, I went to my first ever CIY MOVE. In the most cliché description possible: it changed my life. But literally after that week in Holland, MI my life was never the same because after that point I could no longer live as a child of the world but rather I was on the path to knowing I was a child of God.
After that week, I came back with questions and a passion for the life changing God that I had never experienced before. Before that week of my life, I had wondered what the purpose of life was, if there was more than school and drama, and where there was for me. As a 16 year old emotional hormonal teenager in little ol' Danville, IN I wanted more. I wanted more than what the world promised, and i felt that longing.
August 10, 2008 I consider my rebirthday. That day marks my "official" acceptance of God into my life and that day is a day I would never change of my life. For me, it marks the best day of my life. Better than that time we went to state finals in winterguard, better than the day(s) i got my black belt(s), better than the day i got my Ball State acceptance letter. All of those things fade away amidst the riches of Heaven.
Fast forward almost five years and the greatness of our God, the God I happily excitedly graciously devoted my life to has blessed me in more ways than I deserve and I know He will continue to bless me. I just want to take a moment to list some of them:
- A almost 4.5 year relationship with a man who has become my best friend. Though we have rough times I never doubted God and He never stopped providing. His provision has never been more apparent to me than it is today as I am able to see what we have gone through and where we are now. I am only encouraged to proceed and see where He takes us.
- Incredible mission opportunities in both Seattle and Northern Ireland. Each one of these trips have been full of learning about God and who he is and how to trust Him. I can go on and on about these trips but I think I will just summarize and say I'd be totally fine if he put me in either one of these areas for an extended period of time. ;)
- Countless gospel friendships to encourage me along the way. I could sit here an list names but then I'd leave people out and you'd all start fighting and it would get ugly.. so that being said: you're all important and valued to me.
Though the future is uncertain to me [and i find this terrifying] and i prepare as best i can for what after college will have in store I have something important to admit. In the coming months people will be asking me where I see myself and what do I want to do with my future. Here is my response to that: I don't live for myself, I live for God and his Kingdom. I am going to do whatever He asks me to do - wherever He asks me to do it. So no, I no longer plan on moving to Nashville or Chicago right after graduation. And I'm perfectly terrifyingly okay with not knowing what or rather where I am going to be next May. It's not that i'm ignorant or dumb and don't want to apply myself, its that I wish to apply myself for a different purpose than "the american dream".
The coming months are going to be super exciting and I can't even begin to explain how rewarding my last year of school is going to be only taking 12 and 6 credits each semester respectively before I graduate but I am praying that I am able to learn a lot about myself and where God wants me after school. I am so excited to be in a place now where I am able to truly enjoy the blessings I have been given instead of ignore them as I have previously. And I pray that I am able to see these blessings and enjoy in the future as well.
Basically, Glory to God because He is indescribable and I am filled with his Spirit and joy every day.
Let all things we do Father be to your glory and the advancement of your Kingdom. Help us be a light in the darkness and let us see You in everything - even the bad things. It's in your gracious name I ask this Father - Amen.
<3
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